But I haven't TOLD any students to fuck off out of the library though!

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Hello my darlings! I hope you're all okay! I'm fine, incredibly tired, but that's not new. Currently I'm proceeding as though it's just regular tired instead of depression tired, but we'll see how long that lasts!

• Current state of the dayjob: the biggest drama at work is that we apparently can't convince the customers they need to keep their masks on while they're in the building. I think the most common reason seems to be that they think they're bubbled so it's fine, which... Is not how this works! If you were properly bubbled, we wouldn't be having this conversation! I ended up with a security guard gossiping at me yesterday though, and the scuttlebutt I got from that is that the uni has officially told security that they're not to try to disperse any gatherings themselves, they're just to call the police. The police, who fined students in Nottingham £40,000 for gathering in the last month. HUH. Also if we have to tell someone more than three times to keep their mask on, the student gets put through the disciplinary board for their school, AND potentially fined £250. THINGS I WAS NOT EXPECTING FROM THE UNI: THAT.


• (I am torn between whether I think this is a good plan or whether I think this is the university deflecting responsibility onto the student body to excuse the university re-opening for in-person classes, etc. ... ASK ME ABOUT MY COMPLICATED FEELINGS RE: STUDENTS WHO NEED TO LEAVE THEIR ORIGINAL HOMES VS THE SAFETY OF THE PEOPLE WITH DUTY OF CARE RESPONSIBILITIES FOR THEM.)


• I have started keeping a list of things I want to buy on Google Keep (like... Just straight pasting the links in whenever I see something I want) and I'm enjoying the way it temporarily solves my desire to spend money. Lists make the dopamine ping, and having it written down means that my brain doesn't have as much of a chance to hyperfixate on "WHAT IF I FORGET THAT I WANT TO BUY THIS THING?!" As that's what usually stops me following the advice of "wait twenty-four hours before you buy a thing so you can be sure you really want it," I'm cool with it!


• ... That said, I have bought myself new work shoes, because I'm very consistent in going on the Doc Martens website for cute shitkicker boots to wear with short skirts and coming back with ugly but practical shoes instead. orz


• I love my mum, but I spent yesterday morning trying to explain how I love her but don't want her leaving Manchester (in Tier 3 lockdown) to come to Nottingham (about to be in tier 3 lockdown) just to deliver my birthday presents, because that is not a good plan.


• Favourite Nibling somehow convinced jilliferium to video call me on Friday, so we could play hide-and-seek from different countries????? The future is weird, and hiding in cupboards via phone is fun.


• I... Want to play Final Fantasy games. All of them. At the same time. I straight up do not have time to do that, but I want to anyway.


• There's a genfic week for MXTX fandoms in November, and I don't think I've ever been targetted so specifically by a fandom challenge?


• In positive brain news, I realised today that it's been over a year since the last time I did that thing where I worked so many shifts for so many days in a row that I just collapsed at the end of it!


• Did I already tell you that I'm trying to get back into the habit of using a diary again? Because it turns out that I am still not magically able to remember to do things if I don't write them down? I've stripped everything back to basics to make it easier to take it to work with me, and it's been kinda fun to figure out which parts of my old system I actually miss. Like, turns out that the most important thing for me is having at least one mildliner with my diary for crossing things out! Because my brain doesn't process crossings out! Good to know.


• I am going to capslock about my sewing adventures in a different post, but I sewed myself a notebook cover! If I'd been thinking, I would have put an interfacing layer in it so that it wasn't quite as wrinkled as it is, or at least assembled an underlayer of felt or something that I could sew all of my fabric bits to instead of running off prayer and insufficient pins. BUT it looks cool! And it was super easy apart from the insufficient pins thing! (It was basically layering various sizes of charm packs from Japan Crafts until I was happy, then sewing it all together. Oh! And not being able to find my ruler, so folding the spine pieces a bunch of times so that I had a grid to work out the diamond shapes on.)


• I'm bringing Don't Be So Hard on Yourself back, even though this isn't a music post, because we need the reminder.

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[mrs_sweetpeach]

Your notebook cover is awesome!