spindizzy: She is too fond of books and it has turned her brain. (Book turned brain)
2014-10-31 01:52 am

[sticky entry] Sticky: Where to find me on the internet!

  • [personal profile] spindizzy: Here! I don't know how you're reading this if you don't know that, but let's start with the basics. ;) This is my spottily updated journal, mostly real-life blather with occasional dips into fandom.

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2015-09-22 12:31 am
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[sticky entry] Sticky: Prompts?

Hey guys - this post is going to be a sticky, so feel free to come back to it whenever you fancy! I'm doing my best to make it easy to find.

I WOULD LIKE YOU GUYS TO LEAVE ME PROMPTS, IF THAT'S OKAY. Any fandom you think I'm into or would like, any/no pairings, as many comments/prompts as you'd like. I just... Want to make a repository of things for me to write in the future that's a bit less intimidating than going through the [community profile] ff_exchange backlist. Like, I won't promise that I'll get to everything, but I really like the idea of having a fixed place to look for inspiration?

spindizzy: (When you put it like THAT)
2017-10-17 09:40 pm
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[sticky entry] Sticky: Reaction shot master post!

Because I do a lot of these when I'm watching a tv show, and a masterpost is only as convenient as it is to find it.

  • Yuri!!! On Ice — A world-class figure skater with anxiety tries to retire and somehow ends up with his idol coming to mentor him instead.

  • Princess Principal — Schoolgirl spies in magical gaslights London; everything is tragic but there are body doubles and friendship so maybe everything will be okay.

  • Fate/Apocrypha — You know how the regular Grail War is seven people summoning heroic figures and trying to kill each other? It's like that, but they've got teams now.

  • Daredevil — Blind lawyer punches crime IN THE FACE because there is no conflict of interest there.

  • Card Captor Sakura: Clear Card — Sakura goes to high school and SOMETHING WEIRD happens to all of her cards so she has to capture them all again!
spindizzy: Taiga staring over her newspaper (*reads suspiciously*)
2019-02-04 06:02 pm

Reaction shot: Today's Menu for the Emiya Family Episode 2 (or, LANCER!!!!)

TODAY'S MENU FOR THE EMIYA FAMILY CONTINUES TO BE REALLY CUTE, YOU GUYS. And in this episode, my TOTALLY NOTE FAVOURITE FATE CHARACTER EVER shows up! Yay! (I don't know who IS my favourite character in Fate, for the record, but Lancer is one of the like THREE PEOPLE who treats Rin with the respect she deserves so I loooooove hiiiiiim.)

... I'm not saying that this reaction shot is literally just endless variations of LANCER I LOVE YOU but I'm not NOT saying that.

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2019-02-04 11:30 am

Update on the laptop situation!

HELLO my darlings! This is a quick and dirty update to say that I have a new laptop, her name is Svetlana and she is very sleek. IN THEORY she will run Sims 4 at max graphics and Final Fantasy XV at minimum graphics, but I haven't tested that yet. She HAS BSoDed on me twice since I got her on Friday, but Windows 10 is not her fault and I WAS installing a lot of games on her at the time.

(Please appreciate how many scary phonecalls I had to make to go "Hi, you didn't fix the laptop keys even though you said you did, and where is the bit of paper explaining what you DID fix?" and "I know you said I could trade in my current laptop but Staples/Office Outlet literally don't offer anything with comparable specs, what do?" And then I had to go to PC World, where I did NOT get ambushed by salesfolks when I was expecting them, but did manage to summon [twitter.com profile] hardlyaverage and [twitter.com profile] captainraz to hold my hand and validate my choices. I decided not to get the HP Omen in the end, but it was CLOSE because it was 3edgy5me and I kinda loved it unironically.)

Apart from that, Lex possibly has the flu (like full-on "fever and chills and possible delirium" levels of possibly having the flu)! Housemate is investing in INTERESTING COOKING SCIENCE that involves spending six hours making steam dumplings and a week fermenting kimchi! Jill is hating the snow with the fire of a thousand suns, which will hopefully solve the problem! I am off to the doctor's after work to see whether or not I have blood, which is why you're getting this update now! True friendship is three of you accidentally co-ordinating your appointments to be one right after the other with the same doctor and no prior consultation, so party in the waiting room!

... Maybe wish me luck on the having blood thing? I don't know, the scale of potential problems has "Vitamin D deficiency" at one end and "Pre-diabetes and PCOS" at the other, so I'm not freaking out but I'm not exactly relaxed about it either.
spindizzy: (Got it!)
2019-02-03 11:53 pm

Reaction Shot: Yuri On Ice Episode 12 (or, *RAPTOR SCREECHING INTENSIFIES*

OKAY, final episode! I am hype because I remember pretty much the ending and NOTHING ELSE ABOUT THIS EPISODE. ... Which means that the beginning of it is going to be so rough, because oh my god Yuri, WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS.

[Master post of reactions is here!]

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So the tl;dr is basically that Yuri On Ice is STILL GOOD and makes me super emotional about these beautiful gay muppets being in love and terrible at communicating that. IT'S SO GOOD.
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2019-02-02 04:07 pm

Signal Boost: SignalBoost✔ bookmarklet

[personal profile] melannen posted: Signal Boost: SignalBoost✔ bookmarklet

[personal profile] astolat shared a javascript bookmarklet that automates the (existing custom of) DW-style signalboost/linksharing! It looks like the above part of this post. I think it will be very useful for people who use Dreamwidth differently from me.

I don't know if this will help anyone, but someone's made a bookmarklet for DW that lets you essentially reblog poats around DW! So far it seems to work pretty well, and any text you highlight in the post will be carried into your pseudoreblog!

... I can't guarantee that I won't use this power for evil.
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2019-01-28 02:01 pm

Reaction Shot: Yuri On Ice episode 11 (or, OH NO: the anime)

Hey guys! Only like a year or two overdue: the reaction shot for episode eleven of Yuri!!! On Ice! It was really weird coming back to the series after so long (and it really genuinely has been actual years, HOW DOES TIME WORK?!) and after getting an anxiety diagnosis of my own. All the stuff that Yuri did that I was just "Oh man, I feel this on a personal and visceral level!" and all the stuff where I was like "Well obviously Yuri has anxiety, but I don't want to appropriate anything!" — YOU HAVE ANXIETY SUSAN. THAT WAS LITERALLY LOOKING AT SOMEONE WITH THE EXACT SAME BRAIN HANG-UPS AS YOU AND GOING "OH MAN, I FEEL FOR THEM SO STRONGLY! BUT I'M SURE THERE'S NOTHING HERE THAT I NEED TO APPLY TO MY OWN LIFE!"

... Bless past!me, but she was sometimes an idiot.

So yeah, it's weird to watch and remember feeling sympathy anxiety, but also... I dunno, be able to recognise what it is? And not be that anxious watching a fun tv show about queer ice skaters! ... Also it's so nice to be able to watch it and not be fretting about Yuri/Victor being jossed or something tragic happening to one of them, because apparently the "Is this canon or am I being hella queerbaited into being invested in something that will end in tears?!" took up a lot of my emotional energy the first time around.

... Also, you know, it's really weird to come back to the FIRE NATION ATTACK and actually see it coming, but also *screaming intensifies*

[Master post of reactions is here!]

Okay, let's do this, I'm ready!

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2019-01-23 08:58 am


 Hey everyone! Quick update on my me for people I don't have on twitter:

  • I am SUPER TIRED. Like, "Start nodding off in the middle of a game/a training session for work/transcribing" levels of tired. I know I usually say I'm cream-crackered but the actually dozing off mid-sentence is a new one on me.

  • Work is in the middle of exam season so the students are Not Happy. They're trying their best, bless them, but they're all a bit frazzled.

  • My laptop is in the shop! I had a straight line of keys on my laptop just stop working, so I sent my laptop in for repairing. Prayer circle that she comes back okay, because Staples no longer do laptops that will run games so cashing in my warranty for a fourth? Fifth? time will be a bit more of a struggle. (I think the problem is just that there was some crud under the keys that I couldn't get out despite my best efforts, but prising the keys off myself to check would void my warranty.) I've been using a tiny busted laptop that can't actually run Firefox properly and honest to god lags when I type, so I'm desperately waiting for my laptop to come back.

  • Day 286: still not Word DPS in 4tw. Have in fact made myself EVEN MORE THE TANK.

  • Book blanket is going well, although suffering from the fact that I read manga a lot faster than I knit, so. I have completed five squares! And most of my border! And realised that I'd forgotten a square, so I need to put that one in next!

  • The text I got for my blood test results came back "Talk to your doctor at your next appointment, no need to make an extra one," which I assumed meant that there was nothing wrong! But apparently there is a specific text message for "Your blood test came back as expected/negative" so what it actually means is "There might be nothing wrong! OR, whatever is wrong is not going to kill you between now and February." Yay.

  • (AND I survived not only going to the dentist, BUT ALSO seeing a dentist who is not my usual! THAT IS A BIG DEAL FOR ME, all hail our lord and saviour Fluoxetine.)

  • I am possibly going to start going through my books and things to see what I can get rid of forever/lend out. If I put a list of things on here, or in a google doc, would that work for people? Or should I just tweet things as I find them? (I am fine, I just figured that it would be easier to tidy up the books I have if I got rid of the ones that weren't doing anything for me.)

  • Housemate said I could borrow his massage-shoulder-wrap-thing because I also have shoulder muscles like rocks, and it was like a religious experience. Shoulder muscles relaxed that I didn't even know could relax, what is this sorcery?!

  • Pokémon Let's Go is one of the purest games that I've ever played, and my adorable Eevee is the mightiest of warriors in super cute outfits. Sometimes we even match! It's great! I've made it to Lavender Town, and forgot to heal up before I went tearing off after Team Rocket, so... Oops? HOPE NO ONE WANTS TO FIGHT ME IN THE CELADON TUNNEL.

  • Apart from that... I dunno. I've been struggling a little bit with getting things done, but that could just be me and my "I did not build Rome in a day, I am a failure!" woes, rather than something actually being wrong? I've ordered new diary pages, because I feel like I need something that's a little bit less effort to fill in for a while? I am working 8:00-19:00 today because I'm a muppet? I dunno guys. I hear Dreamwidth is getting more active now that Tumblr has died a death, which means that I really need to do sweeps to see if anyone's made communities for any of my fandoms and start actually reading back through my reading page, which I haven't done in like... Six months...? No, that can't be right. (Narrator voice: It was probably right.)

How are you all? What've you been up to? Is Dreamwidth full of shiny new communities for your fandoms? (TELL ME WHICH FANDOMS ARE ACTIVE.)
spindizzy: Moko and Kyoko from Skip Beat!, Moko emoting angry skulls and Kyoko emoting love hearts. (WHY DO YOU LOVE ME)
2019-01-14 12:05 am

Reaction Shot: Hitman: Agent 47 (Or, The Misadventures of Katia Van Dees)

In "movies with [twitter.com profile] splend" adventures: last year (Omg that sounds so dramatic, but it was literally like December) we had an afternoon of watching ridiculous Hitman movies! I don't have a lot to say about the Timothy Olyphant one beyond "I AM UNCOMFORTABLE WITH THIS" and "WHY IS THIS VERSION OF AGENT 47 SO SQUISHY?" (although props for the convoluted plot, that's fine), but I got to rewatch Agent 47: The Misadventures of Katia Van Dees, which I am 100% HERE FOR, so you know what that means! CAPSLOCK AHOY!

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spindizzy: Taiga staring over her newspaper (*reads suspiciously*)
2019-01-07 01:14 pm

Reaction Shot: Today's Menu for the Emiya Family Ep 1 (Or, everybody eats and nobody dies!)

Once upon a time while looking for icons, I discovered that Today's Menu For The Emiya Family is a show that exists! It's a cute little series that appears to be set in the happiest timeline, where all of the Masters and Servants are living happily, not committing murders, and cooking together instead!

... It's delightful, it's so pure, I love it. I'm so happy that for once, it was me that got to bring a Fate series to Lex instead of the other way around, and that it's so lovely! It's basically the Fate/Sweetness & Lightning fusion AU, and I am so here for it.

(Apart from the fact that Shinji is still alive and in people's lives, because I straight up hiss at the screen whenever he appears. GO AWAY SHINJI, YOU DON'T DESERVE NICE THINGS.)

But, because I do, and because I cope with nice things by capslocking: reaction shot!

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But yeah, I really like Today's Menu for the Emiya family. It's sweet and wholesome and kind, and I kinda love that it's just a load of people who we've seen trying to kill each other being domestic together like it's a perfectly normal thing. A+ work everyone involved, please keep that up.

Oh, and as promised, the recipe included in the show for toshikoshi soba, with all the attendent provisos that I don't cook, I cannot judge how accurate or reasonable this recipe is, and I take no responsibility if it kills you after you try it. I googled it and the recipes online seem to match up, so it might NOT kill you, but I am not to be trusted on stuff like this beyond "That's what the tv said!"

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spindizzy: Joshua looking smug at the camera. (o rly?)
2019-01-05 10:55 pm
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[Fic] Resident Evil (Movies) // Last Smoke at the End of the World

Another one where I'm not too sure I stuck the landing, but I tried! And the trying is the important part! Can't get my eye back in if I don't try!

Resident Evil (Movies)// Last Smoke at the End of the World
G | 200 words | Alice, Chris, Claire | Set post-RE6, although there's no spoilers. | Written for the prompt "Fireworks" | He'd been saving them for a special occasion.

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spindizzy: (Be happy!)
2019-01-01 12:22 am



spindizzy: (Be happy!)
2018-12-31 11:12 am


Okay, official verdict: 2018 was about ten years long, and I think we did REALLY WELL making it to the end of it! Good work all of us! Hugs and love to all of you, you did amazing and I love you.

For me, I think I was possibly living that This Is Fine Dog life a little too hard, because it felt like everything was on fire around me (thanks politics!) but I was still... Doing okay? Maybe? I think? I tried a bunch of new stuff this year and some of it worked out and some of it didn't! I still achieved things! I am going to brag a bunch about this behind the cut, feel free to either disregard or link to where you're also bragging about how great you did so that I can leave you love.

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... I feel like I've forgotten something HUGE here but if I have, I honestly don't remember it. I have my humans, and I have my schemes, and I'm honestly pretty happy with just that? FEEL FREE TO COME BY AND TELL ME ABOUT GREAT THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO YOU THIS YEAR, OKAY?
spindizzy: Alice waving her arms with a love heart over her head. (Yay!)
2018-12-30 06:03 pm

Christmas: survived!

MERRY WINTER FESTIVITIES EVERYONE! I had a week where I basically didn't touch my laptop at all and it was weird and confusing, but it's okay! I'm back now!

Cut for the long version of my Christmas Adventures. )

So I'm getting back to normal! How is/was everyone else's holiday?
spindizzy: Gippal from Final Fantasy X-2, with the words "Jack of all trades" written over him. (Jack of all trades)
2018-12-29 05:59 pm

[Fic] Beyond Two Souls // Remember, Remember

I didn't even LIKE Beyond Two Souls, why am I drabbling for it?

Beyond Two Souls // Remember, Remember
G | 100 words | Jodie, Aiden | Mild spoilers for the mid-game | "Remember when everyone thought you were just my imaginary friend?" | Written for [community profile] drabble_zone's "imaginary friend" prompt.

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spindizzy: Knitting (Woolcraft)
2018-12-16 09:00 pm

Buried alive by wool

Good morning everyone! How are you all doing? I'm still snowed under with wool projects, which is fun but also terrible because auuuuugh how am I going to get this all done by Christmas? (Better prioritisation, basically. I have a list, and I know when I'm going to be seeing people around Christmas, and I have like a week off beforehand, so... Hopefully this problem is going to solve itself. Somehow.)

Apart from adventures in wool, I haven't really been doing much! I've started my new hours at work – did I mention that on here, or just on twitter? Because that was a Whole Entire Saga, where the hours that I wanted came up for applications after the hours that I would have been okay doing did, so I had an interview and got one set of hours, and then had to be like "Well, I actually want this OTHER set, so..." But the point is still that I applied for TWO WHOLE JOBS and got BOTH OF THEM, because I am mighty! And doing interviews while taking anti-anxiety meds is a really different experience and it was weird. I felt... Not relaxed, but slightly more confident in my answers and my assessment of how well I'd done? And I checked in advance and the interviewers were cool with my bringing a fidget cube through so that I could concentrate, and they actually had all of the interview questions written down in big letters for candidates to read! That is SO USEFUL, why doesn't everywhere do that?!

... None of which is the actual point, which is that I have kind of a new job! It's at the same library, but I have to get up at six in the morning to make it to work on time (Q: Susan, didn't you change jobs in 2015 to avoid getting up at six in the morning? A: I KNOW.), and I get holidays off! Which means that I might actually use my holiday for restful things instead of being an anxious ball of goo! The downside of it is that I don't get annual leave, which means taking off days that I want to is gonna be a pain in the butt. It's only been a week, but so far it's been okay? I am somewhat tired but also trying to go to bed on time (I went to bed at 22:00 one day, [twitter.com profile] readingtheend would be very proud), and having my afternoons back is SO NICE.

Unfortunately, I'm swinging between "I am too tired for emotional investment" and "Just break my heart baby, I'm ready," and I'm not in the mood for any of the rubbish action movies I have to hand, which means that when I'm awake, I'm watching Yuri On Ice and wailing, and when I'm not awake I'm watching action horror movies and being grouchy that they're not fitting the very specific niche thing that I'm interested in.

("I didn't think you had time to rewatch things you liked because your viewing schedule was booked until 2033?" says [twitter.com profile] sithe while I'm rewatching YoI. "Or are you planning to write a two-years-later retrospective?" I CAN'T EVEN BE MAD BECAUSE HE'S NOT WRONG, WHAT THE HELL. I'm getting predictable in my old age, this is the worst!)

Apart from that... Apparently I've somehow written a truly obscene amount of words this year, according to 4tw and my GYWO spreadsheet, now that I've finally gotten around to tallying the two together. I didn't know I had that many words IN ME, but I guess that's what I get for writing in an anxiety fuelled frenzy at the start of the year, and then trying to figure out healthy writing habits at the end of it? I guess?????

So yeah, I'm okay, I'm snowed under with stuff like always, but I think I'm dealing with it, which is nice!
spindizzy: Raven looked shocked and appalled. (Augh!)
2018-12-15 10:46 pm

[Fic] Hitman: Agent 47 // What's the count

I'm not really feeling this one as much as I'd like, but eh! It's written! And it's done! The practice is the important thing and all that!

(PS I know nothing about the games except that you steal people's clothes.)

... Also I was gonna call this "Count bodies like sheep" but I think I need to save that for the stuff I started where it was 100% Katia and 47 either sleeping or having insomnia. Y'know. Once I find the files for those.

Hitman: Agent 47 // What's the count
G | 100 words| Agent 47, Katia | Implied spoilers for the movie | Written for [community profile] drabble_zone's prompt "More." | How many Agents are there?

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2018-12-05 06:43 pm

The most tired of updates

 Hello my darlings! I am INCREDIBLY tired! I have successfully managed to change my hours at work (essentially getting a new job, because it's a new contract that means I don't accrue leave but DO get university holidays off, so swings and roundabouts I guess.), which is nice because yay more money and working the same hours every day! Boo because now I have to get up at six in the morning, and I am SO TIRED. My hours start next week, but I'm trying to scale my sleep cycle back far enough that I can actually, y'know, be functional in the morning when my hours change. It suuuuuuuuuuuucks. But on the plus side, apparently mornings have a little less customer interaction but a little more jobs that you can just work through to fill your shift than the afternoon or evening shifts, so this could be really good for me and my anxiety? Plus: afternoons off!

[twitter.com profile] splend and I have finally finished Beyond: Two Souls, by which I mean we spent like four hours cursing Rabid Rage's name to hell and back for this racist nonsense that he put together where you can't NOT kiss the creepy white dude. Next up: Life is Strange! We're probably gonna have to think REALLY fast to agree on decisions there, but it's fine! We will figure something out. (We really just need to start making a list of media we're gonna blitz together, because we have a lot of fun doing that! ... Also it's Sam's turn to pick the movies because he was Not Happy during Resident Evil 6.)

Um... What else is going on with me? Not much, to be honest. I'm kinda gearing back up into an end-of-year frenzy of words and crafting, because I have A BUNCH of Christmas presents to make (How many? SO MANY.) and I started a little too late. But it's fine! It's fine! I am being sure to pace myself and drink lots of water and take breaks, it's fine. Plus I have a delivery of SAFETY EYES waiting for me at home when I get back, so that's going to be exciting! I've got as far as I could get in one project without them, so the timing's pretty great. And I'm replaying Bioshock Infinite, because apparently Elizabeth is the person I'm in the mood for. Maybe I will achieve my plan of going through it in the order that SEEMS to be correct for maximum surprises (Bioshock Infinite, Bioshock, Bioshock 2, Burial at Sea. BURIAL AT SEA IS THE ONE I'M EXCITED FOR, OKAY, BECAUSE ELIZABETH.) I think I'm getting the balance right of "Must hit this deadline aaaaaaaaah!" to breaks that mean I'm not cramming at the deadline, so... Progress?

On that topic, apparently my christmas present from my doctor was validation that I've made progress and I've come a long way, considering that back in... April? I was convinced that I was never going to get better and that my anxiety was all that I was ever going to be, and now I'm treating my anxiety and slowly figuring out who I am underneath it! It turns out that when I'm not self-sabotaging myself, I'm actually kinda confident? Still not always good at judging what I can get done in the time available to me, but better than I was before I started treatment. It's weird! And kinda cool! And I hope that the new Susan is someone cool as well, because I put a lot of effort into making her!

But yeah, I've got nothing. Christmas plans are still a bit up in the air and need some hardcore wrangling, and I still have a couple more presents that I need to make and/or buy, but... It's fine. It feels doable. (I'll report back in a week or so as to whether it actually WAS doable!) How are you all doing? Are you all okay?
spindizzy: (Long way down)
2018-12-03 02:38 pm

[Fic] Bioshock Infinite // No one left behind

Bioshock Infinite // No one left behind
G | 200 words | Booker, Elizabeth | Technically spoilers for the mid-game | Written for the [community profile] drabble_zone prompt "What are you doing?" | Booker wasn't walking out of this one.

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spindizzy: (Nearly there)
2018-11-28 07:46 pm
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[Fic] Uncharted: Too dumb to die

Uncharted // Too dumb to die
G | 200 words | Sully, Nate | Set pre-series but draws on events from Uncharted 3 | Written for the [community profile] drabble_zone prompt "silver" | If Nate wasn't sixteen and stupid, he wouldn't spend as much time nearly getting shot.

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spindizzy: (What was once)
2018-11-25 02:03 pm

So I have actually been doing stuff in the last couple of months!

Hey everyone! This was going to be two separate posts, and the one from October was going to go live, uh... In October... And then I kinda fell over at the end of the month and never finished it for ??? reasons ??? so here! Here are two separate round-ups of the last two months of my life mashed into one post! ... Literally, I am just copy-pasting them into one post because changing tenses is hard work and also I was apparently really excited about my birthday and it seemed mean to edit that out.

October )

November )
spindizzy: (*blinding realisation*)
2018-11-20 03:43 pm

Reaction Shot: Resident Evil: The Final Chapter (Or, Retcons: The movie)

I didn't live tweet this one because honestly I only got around to buying a copy of this when I started doing this watchalong with Sam. Sam tweeted it here and he's Very Disappointed.

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