Susan

... I squinted at my fandom lists and realised that maybe three-quarters of my ride-or-die ships involve one or more of the participants being temporarily dead, actually dead, never real in the first place, stuck in a metaphorical box for anywhere between a year and a couple of centuries, a casualty of a time-loop and/or shunt to an alternative timeline, or otherwise just stuffed far away from the reach of the people that love them.

And my favourite fiction tropes are "Mutual pining" and "Slow burn".

Why do I cause myself this pain?!