spindizzy | Tuesday, 26 May 2020

Hey loves, I'm still alive! I think!

It was Favourite Nibling's birthday at the weekend! Favourite Nibling is not actually related to me, but they are still the cutest of toddlers and now I have pictures of them eating the head of a caterpillar cake. :D

I'm still using the notebook that sithe donated to me! I'm... About two-thirds of the way through it, which is impressive considering I only started using it on the 3rd. I've been using it as a proper diary – so as a planner AND as a journal, which isn't something I've done in a while! And also as a sketchbook and a photo album, because I've found my tiny bluetooth printer and I've been using that to print off pictures and stick them in my diary as well, and it turns out that doodling Animal Crossing characters is apparently a very soothing activity?
- I have been processing my very repetitive feelings on paper instead of on the internet, which... Weird. Apparently it's possible for people to not talk their way through their feelings on the internet, who knew? And it turns out that in my brain my filofax is too impermanent to record feelings or put photos/doodle in, which is good to know!
- I've been digging out some of my old stationery stuff – mainly washi tape and washi-adjacent stickers, and the little printer! Did you know that it's possible for the glue on your washi tape to fuse the layers together if you leave it in a box in your bedroom for three years? Whoops. But the point is that it's so weird going through my stationery, like The Ghosts Of Hyperfocuses Past are looming over me and seeing if they still have any power, which is unnerving. It doesn't help that I went on an etsy splurge and bought MORE stationery last week, so my brain is sounding the "IS THIS A HYPERFOCUS STORM ON THE HORIZON?!" alarm.
- (The little printer is called a Sprocket, and it basically lets me print out photos and nonsense from the internet as stickers. I love it, I just keep forgetting that I own it.)
- Fun aspect to buying things off etsy during a pandemic: "Do I need to put a note on my order saying that if they can't send it until after lockdown, that's okay?" "It looks like [store owner] hasn't updated in a while, I hope to god that nothing's happened to them!"
- Current state of my stationery haul: A6 notebooks and some stickies, and some personal size notebooks with covers designed for colouring in! (I got them off The Chelsea Paper Co, if you like the look of them.)

I have been sitting in an Animal Crossing hole for two weeks, and I don't know if it's a new hyperfocus or if everything is awful and micromanaging an island helps me to pretend that it isn't. ... Or both! It could be both!

sithe and I have been trading off who's using the Switch (he's playing whatever the Fire Emblem/Persona fusion game is), and somehow between that and my inability to not drop everything on the floor, we borked the joysticks. I'm now kinda offended at the cost of new joycons!

Speaking of everything being awful: I sure am writing to my MP a lot! I don't think she can do much, but it's nice knowing that she is ALSO angry about the things that are making me angry.

I've started doing modified planks as a way of seeing if I can do an exercise! (It's the knees and elbows one, the first one in the list.) So far I can only do about 30 seconds and then I have to lie on the floor for a while and hate my life choices, but that's progress! I can work from that! I'm keeping an eye out for other super-low-effort exercises, see how I feel.

Epilating your face hurts. And for some reason my brain is just like "Okay, face, we can do face – wait you want to try this on your legs?! Don't, it'll hurt!"

I was very convinced that I could shave my own undercut back in, until I looked in the mirror and remembered that I need my glasses to see. Fortunately, lexgarrett came to my rescue!