I'm not kidding about the spreadsheet, for the record.

Last time work was messing people around, my sister was like "You can have a little midlife crisis, as a treat" and godddddd what if I just take her up on that. What if I just have a little panic and completely change what field I work in. What if I run off and retrain for a different job or something.

... God, where would I even get the energy.

So yeah, job hunt is going! I have applied to some places, interviewed in one place, been rejected from those places. Bit of a ding to the ego, but that's probably good for me. (One of my coworkers interviewed for the same job I did, and he got it! Apparently he felt bad telling me and I'm just there like "NO, stop that, I'd much rather it go to you than someone else because I know you'll rock it." Also, I hardcore bombed that interview, which is mortifying.) Gonna keep applying for admin and customer service jobs while I contemplate my midlife crisis. I'm considering doing a copy-editing course and seeing if I can pick up some work doing that – common sense is at war with the depression and the eternal idea of "what if work with words :<" and no one is winning. 

... God, I just saw that Seven Seas is hiring editors, and the surge of want that just hit me. Fuck. I'm not qualified, and yet I want.

Anyway, at some point I will figure out how to show off my beautiful job-hunting spreadsheet. It's got conditional colour-coding and links to all of the relevant sites. It's got a tracker of my application progress. I just need to work my way down it every week until I find something. Which I guess I'll get a start on now, see you later! ♥