I am still going "Wait, the doctor really said that, right?"

[spindizzy]

The weird thing is, having a diagnosis hasn't made any actual material difference to my life and objectively I know that, but it's still made a big difference in terms of how I treat myself? I mean, it's only day three of having the diagnosis, the ink isn't even on the page yet let alone wet, but... It's a lot easier to look at my to-do list and my deadlines and go "Okay, this is ambitious and you have ADHD so you need to take that into account, but it should be okay!" And that's some Pollyanna nonsense, I know, but I'm so used to not being able to treat myself with kindness over stuff like this, that it's honestly blowing my mind? I like not hating myself for failing to meet impossible standards, it's nice!

... Anyway, I swear, next post will not involve Until Dawn OR my health IN ANY WAY. But... Hey, I'm not lazy and I don't suck at everything I try. I have executive dysfunction issues. That's why I struggle sometimes. And it's blowing my mind.

Comments

[forestofglory]

<3

[lokifan]

That's great!!

[squeemu]

all the hugs!!!