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THE UNFUCKENING COMETH
Hi my darlings! This last week or so my project has been Tidying The House! We have a landlord inspection on the 3rd of December and had a house guest last Friday/Saturday, so I managed to blitz the living room and the bathroom enough that we could at least set up her airbed and let her use the bathroom. ... TBH I am expecting that putting the effort in for the landlady isn't going to be worth it because she hires a cleaning service AND forgets that our household is two people with executive function disorders and one person with a full-time job. The only up-side of it is that I can present her with the list of Things That Need Fixing without worrying that I'm going to draw additional scrutiny.
ANYWAY, the main way I've been dealing with this is "open Tody, stare at it blankly, then junebug my way to victory." ... And also politely asking everyone in my house to Find A Place That Is Elsewhere to lurk while I rampage around and throw things into bin bags. Because it turns out that cleaning in bursts of frantic activity are easier for me than steady maintenance, FOR SOME REASON. CAN'T IMAGINE WHY.
(It's the ADHD and we all know it.)
(Speaking of, I did a thread on twitter a while ago about Tody and other apps I'm using for my ADHD, but I can't remember if I mentioned it before on here. ... Tody is useful! It gives you lists of what you could do to clean up and regular intervals at which to do them! It lets you customise your tasks AND the intervals between them depending on your home and your attitude to cleaning! It's really useful, I just can't get to the level where there aren't always 50 things in the red yet, so I avoid looking at it.)
I think the thing that stresses me out the most about cleaning is the same thing that stresses me out about literally everything else in my life: shame! Not just of the "How could I have let it get this bad, how have Mike and Lex not punted me out of the house yet" variety, but super fun flavours like "I am being haunted by the ghost of hobbies and obligations past" or "Woe, my to-do list doesn't accurately capture the full scale of what I've got left to do!" ... I don't have a good solution for this yet. I'm literally just treating it as a "the only way out is through" problem, because it doesn't matter how much shame I feel about not having vacuumed in the last forty thousand years when the vacuuming still needs doing. And if all else fails, Lex and I have a storage unit so whatever we can't clean up we can HIDE.
... Plus, in a co-incidence that is amusing me GREATLY, Netgalley have just approved me for The Life-changing Manga of Tidying Up. PERFECT TIMING. I'll report back on the book and the state of my room. o7
ANYWAY, the main way I've been dealing with this is "open Tody, stare at it blankly, then junebug my way to victory." ... And also politely asking everyone in my house to Find A Place That Is Elsewhere to lurk while I rampage around and throw things into bin bags. Because it turns out that cleaning in bursts of frantic activity are easier for me than steady maintenance, FOR SOME REASON. CAN'T IMAGINE WHY.
(It's the ADHD and we all know it.)
(Speaking of, I did a thread on twitter a while ago about Tody and other apps I'm using for my ADHD, but I can't remember if I mentioned it before on here. ... Tody is useful! It gives you lists of what you could do to clean up and regular intervals at which to do them! It lets you customise your tasks AND the intervals between them depending on your home and your attitude to cleaning! It's really useful, I just can't get to the level where there aren't always 50 things in the red yet, so I avoid looking at it.)
I think the thing that stresses me out the most about cleaning is the same thing that stresses me out about literally everything else in my life: shame! Not just of the "How could I have let it get this bad, how have Mike and Lex not punted me out of the house yet" variety, but super fun flavours like "I am being haunted by the ghost of hobbies and obligations past" or "Woe, my to-do list doesn't accurately capture the full scale of what I've got left to do!" ... I don't have a good solution for this yet. I'm literally just treating it as a "the only way out is through" problem, because it doesn't matter how much shame I feel about not having vacuumed in the last forty thousand years when the vacuuming still needs doing. And if all else fails, Lex and I have a storage unit so whatever we can't clean up we can HIDE.
... Plus, in a co-incidence that is amusing me GREATLY, Netgalley have just approved me for The Life-changing Manga of Tidying Up. PERFECT TIMING. I'll report back on the book and the state of my room. o7