spindizzy: Finding something to live for is harder. (Gotta find something to live for)
  • Today I learned that it is possible for Betty to betray me! Apparently she has the ability to shut off my wifi as a power-saving tactic, which I didn't know but am retroactively horrified by, especially as wrangling that has been what I was doing for the last... Half hour? Forty-five minutes? I wanted to sleep, Betty, why don't you love me!

  • I got my first sets of earrings and they are hella fucking cute!

  • I have been working? I have my posts for this week mostly done (I need to wrangle the images for the one on Thursday but apart from that it's done), I have the skeletons of my other posts this month, I have learned an important lesson about signing up to bit a pinch hitter for a fandom exchange without checking what the minimum word count for pinch hits is, and... I'm doing okay. I'm trying to work through everything one at a time in chronological order of due date, which is fucking me up a bit, because that's not how I work, but... I'm getting there. Slowly. I am trying to keep looking at what I've achieved (LOOK AT WHERE YOU ARE! LOOK AT WHERE YOU STARTED!) but every time I do, I go "Yes, but all of the rest of this" and need to lie down again. orz

  • Have downloaded Zombies Run, where apparently your reward for walking around (what I am using it for) or running fucking 10ks like an absolute madwoman (what [twitter.com profile] fkth uses it for because she is amazing) is that you get to unlock chunks of story AND build a town. If people had told me this, I would have got on this ride way sooner. What I am learning is that while I LIKE Pokémon Go and games that involve a degree of mindless repetitive gameplay... I need it to be interrupted by tiny chunks of story, just to keep me motivated.

  • Related: UK people! The people who do Zombies Run want a writing trainee, it might be worth looking into.

  • I need to crochet Jill some jellyfish.

  • It's eleven days into the start of the year and my brain is going "YOU HAVE ONLY READ FIVE BOOKS!" Brain, we have a whole year. Find your chill.

  • I have shiny new doc martens! There was a sale, and our David gave me twenty quid with explicit instructions to buy shoes not frivolous things, so... I bought myself some nice, sturdy nylon docs in the half-price sale? I was tempted to get some of the LUDICROUSLY CHEAP and colourful ones, but let's settle for ones that I can wear to work first, yeah?

  • My second-oldest sister can't have biological children, so she is starting the adoption process! I am really proud of and happy for her, although wrapping my head around there being niblings in this family that were definitely chosen and 100000% wanted is really weird for me, mainly because I'm not 100% sure ANY of the kids in this family were wanted, self included. ... I nearly tagged this post as "You can't pick your family" and literally the mention of my family is about someone picking their family, fuck's sake.

  • I got nothing. I just want to write my words and have a sleep and not go to work in the morning but HAHA jokes on me for that one.
spindizzy: Alice in chibi mode looking really confused, with the text "curiouser and curiouser" above her. (Wait what)
  • I didn't get the job I interviewed for on Monday, WHICH IS FINE. I can always apply for other things! It will be fine! It was good interview experience! I have another one on Thursday for the job I'm not sure I want (managing a bunch of backbiters SUPER FAR AWAY, but also the shift pattern is SO GOOD), so we'll see how that goes. Either way, I'm probably going to have to actually officially start job hunting come the new year, because I spoke to my manager and a) she doesn't know if contracts are going to be renewed next year, and b) even they are, they're only being renewed till June to see who wins the election and how that affects our budgets. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I was SO GOOD and didn't pointedly mention to the two confirmed Brexit voters (one of whom was the manager in question) that if they hadn't voted Brexit maybe we'd all be more likely to keep our fucking jobs. (... Mainly because I think I'm the only one at the library who has NO permanent hours so I'm the main one this affects. Or at least I'm the only one with "(Temp)" after my name on the timetable.)

  • I got my ears pierced yesterday! I meant to do it on Monday after my job interview, but the place I was going to go is apparently closed on Mondays. Ended up going to a place in town that [twitter.com profile] captainraz likes, but when I told her that they used a piercing gun not needles (IDK) she was really disappointed in them. IT IS FINE, I was in for maybe five minutes, and now I have bits of metal in my ear that I keep wanting to poke! And I have to clean them with a saline solution twice a day instead of doing that, gaaaaaaah. But, on the plus side, I have dived FACE FIRST into Etsy and there are so many cute things. Current plans:
    1. Acquire an N7 hoodie and a pair of earrings with the Paragon and Renegade symbols on, become the Commander Shepard I want to see in the world.

    2. Acquire enough earrings that I can wear a different pair every day for a month with no hesitation or repetition. #earringpocalypse (Thank you [twitter.com profile] splend!)

    3. Avengers Academy is on a break from events and this is SO GREAT, I am actually enjoying playing it for the first time since... Halloween? Maybe? And I have finally got a chance to get the Hulk! (... But seriously, where did all of this "Every male character except Union Jack wants to date either Black Widow or Wasp, no exceptions" thing come from and can it go back into its hole now?)

    4. I'm sure there was something I wanted to chat about but I can't remember what it is. I have an exam on Tuesday that I've not practiced for enough? ... Did I tell you all that I'm studying sign language? Um, if not... Hi! I'm studying sign language! I'm really bad at it because I can't take notes! I have an exam tomorrow and it's LITERALLY a two minute conversation, but I am TERRIFIED. I will hopefully be fine! Maybe! I am confident in my ability to make most of the signs I need, but I am not as confident in my ability to read all the signs I need, if that makes sense? Like how I can fingerspell fine, but reading fingerspelling is my greatest fucking weakness.
    spindizzy: (Now it sounds stupid)
    But seriously, I was THIS CLOSE to calling an early night at the pub and coming home to play with her. Only the fact that Chris and [twitter.com profile] envexenveritas are delightful kept me in the pub. ;P

    Black Betty, bamalam )

    And my conquistador book )

    Unrelated, I am stocking my harddrive with Steam games right now, and I am probably going to be appealing to twitter for help with deciding what media I want to consume next, because I legitimately have TOO MANY OPTIONS. ... Would people be interested in reaction shots? I can promise extended screaming and capslock if anyone would be interested in that. (If it ends up being Star Wars: Rebels, I need to do two versions of this, one with what I THINK is happening based on what I have seen over Lex's shoulder and one with the characters actual names and caring about the plot. PONYTAIL JEDI SAID THAT HE WOULD SEE HERA AGAIN AND I AM STILL SULKING, [twitter.com profile] readingtheend is judging me. Also Lex FAITHFULLY PROMISED ME that Sabine? has a bounty hunter ex-girlfriend and you can tell I'm here for this because Sabine is one of the two characters I can remember the names of.)

    ... Hell, if I just go "Here are three or four things I am considering cramming into my face and probably writing about this week" would anyone be up for helping me to make decisions?
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    Today is being A Day and I don't know why?

    - Shark week will go on longer, you say? How marvellous. *stares into camera*
    ~ I finally phoned up about my DVD drive being fucked, and I'm PRETTY SURE the lady said that she'd arrange for my laptop to be replaced? And I'm kinda "?!" about that, because usually it takes three catastrophic breakdowns (Like... Last time I swapped out a laptop, it was because it was getting so hot it was BURNING MY HAND when I used it) to get to that stage? And I've only had two relatively minor ones - literally, apart from the disk drive not working, this laptop is working perfectly. ... I always get really jittery when people offer me replacements and when I'm talking to people about my warranty I feel like I have DONE SOMETHING WRONG and I have no idea why. I may have misunderstood her, maybe they're just going to replace the disk drive, which is still a pretty good thing! (And people will stop asking me if I've updated/reinstalled the drivers like I'm an idiot who didn't try that first.)
    - Guess who was smart and left her knee brace in a bag at home? I'm only doing a four hour shift and then I'm going to the cinema, so I SHOULD be fine, I'm just wary of it starting to ache already.
    + Have been out the house since like 9:15 and it's only starting to ache now, that's good! That's progress! I will probably keep wearing the brace because if I wear the brace my knee doesn't tend to hurt, but the brace itself drives me up the wall because I have very fat squishy thighs so things tend to either roll or slide so I need to adjust it. I will work on this! (Like, a hairclip should stop the rolling, I just need to work out the correct angle to strap it at so it doesn't slide.)
    + Appear to have escaped the RSI flare-up I was in, which is EXCELLENT. WRITE ALL OF THE THINGS, FUCKING BRING IT.
    + Remembered to take a book back to Waterstones and they gave me a refund! I now have £7 that I shall spend on books... Actually, it was a book for my mum's christmas present that I was returning, and I've ordered her the next one, so I might save it to use on that.
    + A fic I was following updated!
    - ... You know when you're reading a fic and you're like "I'm pretty sure this author trying to portray historical racism is really white" and then the whole thing is just uncomfortable? Yeah, that. THAT.
    - I was totally going to do work in the library and then ended up reading that instead while I backed up my computer, whoops.
    - I really really need to get this review written, Jesus Christ Susan get your fucking SHIT TOGETHER.
    + Have got IFTTT working! My posts should be porting over to twitter properly, which will be nice? Maybe?
    + [personal profile] scarimonious linked me to the Lucifer soundtrack and I am enjoying this!
    ~ Have discovered that if I bribe myself to do a thing and I do the thing, I often don't want or do the reward at the end of it. But I needed the idea of the reward to do the thing. ... What the fuck brain, what the actual fuck.

    So yeah, nothing's WRONG, it's generally been a good day? But I am jittery despite having eaten and it's a weird feeling. Also if any of the old men try to joke around with me today I am probably going to... Just pin a smile on my face while thinking "MURDER" actually.
    spindizzy: (Be happy!)
    Guys! Guys guys guys! IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY ON SUNDAY! I didn't go home for a change, because a) I'd been the week before, and b) I wasn't sure I could deal with that much drama on my birthday. Instead, [twitter.com profile] jilliferium came to visit me! And I asked [twitter.com profile] madebyjenni if we could come over and use her kitchen to make cake and maybe play Mario Kart with her? And then the next thing I knew it was a PARTY and there was SO MUCH FOOD and the most beautiful cake, omg. And lots of my friends came and we played Mario Kart and Smash Bros and Pandemic: Cthulhu (which Jenni and her boyfriend got for me and Lex as a joint present), because WE ARE MASSIVE NERDS and I got to swirl around in my floaty dress, it was great! I don't know how I feel about not going home for my birthday, but I think I feel a little bad that I didn't go? But I saw Jill and I didn't end up stressed and annoyed because My Family, so I guess I win!

    Aaaaand, guess what! Guess what! Between Lex and my mum, I got ninety-five pounds in Bravissimo vouchers! I got three bras that fit for three pounds with those! \o/ And Lex got me books on Regency England and the Old West and the Roaring Twenties, because he's WONDERFUL. *bounce bounce bounce* And [personal profile] renay wrote me 29,000 words of Baralai and Gippal and POLITICS, it is AMAZING!

    And on Monday, I went to see Sweeney Todd with Sam ([twitter.com profile] splend), Tonks ([twitter.com profile] captainraz), Jay ([twitter.com profile] hardlyaverage), and Matt (who has a twitter but apparently doesn't use it, so he doesn't give it out. *shakes fist at friends using inconvenient social media*) at Derby Theatre, and it was really good! The set was a rotating set of rooms with a staircase and a tall wall on one side to be the outside streets, the bakehouse on the back, and the other two sides open so that you could see Mrs Lovett's shop and Sweeney Todd's barbershop. I liked it! And the cast can really sing, especially Sweeney Todd! Like, there were a few songs I didn't recognise in it, which is apparently because those songs were fucking awful. The rape scene was a lot more graphic than in any other version I've seen, there was a song about Judge Turpin's erection (with bonus literal self-flagellation), and Pirelli threw Toby down and tried to rip his teeth out! D: D: D: D: But apart from that, it was really good? The actress even made Johanna an interesting character, which takes some doing!

    Tuesday I was back at work (boo!), and I started on a British Sign Language course I wanted to do (yay!)! It was REALLY STRESSFUL because it was pretty much an immersion course? The teacher apparently will only speak in the last ten minutes of each lesson, and for everything else we're getting signs and writing on the board. It's... Stressful? And really awkward because there's no way to take notes so I have have to remember? And it sets off my performing in public anxieties? But I feel like I'm learning a lot! I can do a bit of fingerspelling anyway, but reading fingerspelling is a whole different skill set. O_o And the signs we've learned so far have been really simple but fairly straightforward! I'm... Hoping it'll be okay, because the assessment sounds really hard. Apparently in BSL, the subject of the sentence ALWAYS goes at the start! And you always need to use your dominant hand to form signs, essentially onto your other hand, which is kinda neat.

    (There was a guy in class who was making terrible jokes in sign language like half an hour in! That is SKILL. His name was Richard, and he lives in one of the classy/expensive areas of town. The teacher signed something to the effect of "So he's rich!" and Richard's response (signed) was "No, I'm poor, my name is Rich." orz)

    Wednesday, I bought a new backpack! I like this backpack, it is grey and waterproof as fuck and I love it. It was a bit more expensive than I wanted? But my old backpack is eight years old and the top is NOTHING BUT HOLES. Also absolutely no one discovered that their laptop warranty would be voided if they had a different operating system on it to the one it was sold with! No one had to do a factory reset on their laptop to see if that would fix the DVD drive that WIndows 10 broke! NO ONE AT ALL. (Do not talk to me about the game I'm in on Wednesdays; one of the party members accidentally killed some people we want on our side and is refusing to accept the blame, also we're in Yorkshire.)

    Thursday, I went to Sam and Tonks' after work! We had a movie night! Sam wanted to see Hardcore Henry because apparently he has been inspired to do a horror movie and wanted to look at how Hardcore Henry handled some stylistic things, and he appeared to enjoy it! I AM GLAD, it seemed like the sort of nonsense he might like. And I wanted to show them both The Losers because I didn't need those feelings anyway, but work didn't have that in so I brought Push instead! Y'know, the other other other other super-power movie that Chris Evans was in. I LOVE THAT FILM SO MUCH AND JUST WANT HIM AND CASSIE TO HAVE SIBLINGS ADVENTURES THAT PROBABLY END IN THREE BUILDINGS GETTING DESTROYED BUT EVERYONE IS FINE AND HOOK IS DISCRETELY DRUNK IN THE BACKGROUND.

    And today... I think I'm going to Sam and Tonks' again for a movie night? I swear I've seen more of them this week than I have my own household, but that happens sometimes when you're a filthy stop-out. :D And I get to see [twitter.com profile] envexenveritas who fucked off down south but is now returned to us! Yay! I keep just missing them to catch up. Tomorrow, a couple of my ex-housemates, who also fucked off down south but haven't returned to us generally, are up to visit, and I have to do the awkward decision of "Do I dislike this one dude enough that I don't want to come hang out, see half my social circle, and give his (lovely!) wife more terrible gay porn manga?" Because I don't know how I feel about this. I might take my laptop and just periodically go "AAAAAAAAND now I need a time out, if anyone tries to disturb me before I take my headphones off myself there might be blood." Or if we're hanging out at [twitter.com profile] madebyjenni I might go and lurk in her kitchen and be like JENNI, SHALL WE BAKE AND NOT DEAL WITH PEOPLE'S SHIT. Or possibly JENNI SHALL WE FIND A TWO PLAYER GAME FOR A GAME CONSOLE AND CRUSH IT BENEATH OUR HEELS while Chris sits in a corner and laughs at us. I'll report back.

    (I survived story time at work! I am so tired and drained and ready to hide under the furniture though.)

    ... This genuinely wasn't supposed to be a "HERE IS WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING ALL WEEK" post, but uh... I guess that's what I wrote. Sorry guys.
    spindizzy: (Be happy!)
    1. The summer reading challenge has started at work! I ended up setting up a treasure hunt, which lots of the parents and kids seemed excited about, and we joined SO MANY KIDS up to the library today! Including adorable twins and a little girl who was very proud to be answering all of the questions.

    2. I got SO MANY BOOKS today! Volumes 2, 3 and 5 of The Ancient Magus' Bride came in (they're still waiting on four!), the second book of DC Bombshells (... I need to read both of these and then AGGRESSIVELY FOIST THEM ONTO [personal profile] captainraz), and the volume of Until Death Do Us Part I somehow managed to skip over came in! And the library got the first fifteen volumes of Skip Beat in for me so I can reread them, and [personal profile] renay is hella jealous and she doesn't know why.

    3. I did a bit of a Pokémon jaunt while I was walking from the library to my mate's house (my regular Wednesday game was cancelled, we went round to stat characters/brainstorm for another game), and a) it is GREAT to go by the bit of the castle near the students and see hordes of people sprawling around blatantly playing Pokémon, b) someone dropped lures on all three overlapping Pokéstops, it was like a fucking swarm, c) I hatched a Snorlax! And an Eggsecute! d) I stopped for a minute to check out a gym, and a massive group of people stopped nearby with their phones out.

      "Oh wow, is everyone kicking Team Valour out of that gym?" says I, and this whole group goes YES. (Me and this one other dude were the token Team Instinct members! REPRESENT, TEAM YELLOW, WE ARE THE CUTEST!) We then proceed to kick Valour out of the gym, Mystic moves in, and I get invited to go on a Pokéwalk up to the castle with this swarm of people. :) I didn't, because I was running behind, but it was really nice to be invited!
    spindizzy: Text icon: "And then canon got fucked so everyone lived happily ever after." (Canon got fucked)
    Sunday night/Monday morning: Stay up till like four am talking Bioware games with [personal profile] justira and [personal profile] owlmoose and watching King Arthur (the 2004 one where magic isn't real and Arthur is the son of a Roman and a Briton who spends most of the movie scraming about FREEDOM! My brain has done a find+replace on this movie and filled Nicholas Cage in as Arthur.) Guest stars Mads Mikkelsen as Sir Too Good For This Fucking Movie, and I need more films that are just Mads Mikkelsen in warrior-mode stabbing people.

    Monday: literally crying over Star Wars fic and Finn learning to be a person apart from the First Order. Unrelated: finish what is legally available of Yotsuba&! in English and going around feeling like I'm going to cry all day.

    Tuesday: [twitter.com profile] sithe starts playing the Deadpool game on the PS4. I spend a lot of time cackling like a loon. Deadpool/Cable reconfirmed as ship of my heart.

    Wednesday: Reminded that Kaiden's voice actor recorded the letter that Kaiden sends Shepard in ME2. Not okay with this at all.

    Thursday: Wake up to a reminder that Thane Krios is a character that exists and just flop facedown on the bed in the middle of getting ready for work like "Nope. Cannot deal with this. NOPE." Also tell Lex that I might need to recruit him to help me as people are asking me Mass Effect questions that I don't know the answer to. "I can help! I can be a font of knowledge! I can be the Times New Roman of knowledge!" Go back to being face down on the bed because I cannot deal with how fucking adorable my fucking spouse is.

    spindizzy: I feel like I spent the whole day fighting guys in rubber suits! D: (I feel like I've fought fake aliens)
    TODAY I LEARNED that I am a dumbass.

    See, back in June I set up my bank account to text me my balance every week, and I assumed that it presented my balance like the temperature. +£30 meant I had £30 in my account, -£30 meant that I was £30 overdrawn, 0 was karmically and financially neutral. The "You have £x available" message seemed to go along with this.

    NO NO NO.

    Apparently, when it texted me my balance, it was taking my overdraft into account! So any message with a negative number was "You have gone out the OTHER SIDE OF YOUR OVERDRAFT."

    This? This explains why my finances are fucked, I still refuse to get a credit card, and I am not to be trusted with money. Fuck everything.
    spindizzy: (Be happy!)
    Happy new year and merry winter festivities guys, I love you. See you on the other side. <3

    ETA: I started my first book of the new year by 01:00. It was Frenchman's Creek by Daphne Du Maurier.
    spindizzy: Cougar from The Losers smiling and holding a gun. (I like you)
    Today I left the house without masses of washi tape (and promptly got a letter off our Jill which obviously requires masses of washi tape to reply to), didn't have my pencil case (and haven't found it yet), and announced that today I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO EAT CHEESE.

    I am either a doppelganger or ill and I don't know which but it should stop.
    spindizzy: Joshua looking smug at the camera. (o rly?)
    So today I ditched my husband in favour of hanging out with my queer bestie to watch a film about a woman ditching her husband to hang out with her queer bestie (and get a new girlfriend).

    This entertains me.

    In other news: Carol is somewhat slow, pretty good, and has 1950s lesbians. Maybe more thoughts when it's not half midnight.
    spindizzy: A picture of Deadpool in mask and tuxedo, shrugging. (What can I say?)
    But one lady LITERALLY just came to bring her foetus to the bounce & rhyme/storytime thing today. She was pregnant and had no other kids, just... Brought the bump.

    BY THE WAY, last night while I was cleaning I found a list of songs for a bounce & rhyme session (it's a session parents can bring there kids to, where they get to sing songs together; at the library I'm at they merge it with storytime) I got into work today and one of my colleagues told me that she really really didn't want to do story time today (she likes to read stories to kids rather than sing, which she feels is scuppered by the fact that most of the kids are less than a year old) and she was pretty sure that we could just swap jobs this afternoon and it'd be fiiiiiiine! And I'm like "Well, thanks for the zero notice but I guess it's better to rip the plaster off and get it over with????"

    And then I spent most of the day fretting and I THINK it went okay, but I am SO GLAD that I had 100,000+ word Losers fanfic to take my mind off it. Even if the rest of the fic I rest after that was... Not to my taste. (I'm not 100% sure that the 100k fic I read was to my taste either, but I couldn't put it down. Ugh.)

    ... Then I was irrationally upset because I wanted one specific type of soup and Lex got me a different type of soup and there's nothing I can really say about it that isn't "Thank you for buying it but I don't like that type of soup" that doesn't make my sound crazy and irrational, even though that's how I feel. I think the problem was just that I hadn't eaten, so my feelings were/are out of whack, but me and food are on weird enough terms that I would rather not eat than have food I don't like. But also I'm at the stage where whatever food I look at I sort of go "No I don't want that" and I don't know if I'm going to have time for lunch tomorrow because TWO SHIFTS IN DIFFERENT LIBRARIES FUCKING YAY, so I'm going to have to have SOMETHING. Ugh.

    TL;DR today I read sang songs with toddlers and at least one actual foetus (inside its mother) and was distressed over soup, fuck today.
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    26629 / 50000 (53.26%)

    I didn't make it to 50,000 words, but that is still the most words I've written on anything since I was fourteen. (When I was fourteen, I wrote like 38,000 words of a Yu-Gi-Oh AU. One day I will post that to AO3 as proof, but AO3 doesn't have an importer for FFN due to FFN's permission setting or something so I'd have to do it manually. :\)

    On the plus side, it's December now! I get to do fun things like open my advent calendars full of stationery (Q: Susan did you really? A: OF COURSE I DID, HAVE YOU MET ME.) and write LUDICROUS AMOUNTS OF TERRIBLE FICTION and SEE MY FAMILY and WORK MY ASS OFF because week two of my schedule continues to be bullshit. And I have a morning at one library on Wednesday, and then an afternoon at a different library entirely! But the buses look... Doable... So I might be okay.

    And yesterday I discovered that the bookcase/tv stand in my room where I kept my comics/sourcebooks/lesbian fiction/xbox was MOULDY AS FUCK so I spent today dousing everything that was on it in white vinegar, disassembling the bookcase, and occasionally checking the internet for a sanity break.



    But I got cuddles! And Lex is going to try to sort us out some new furniture at the weekend while I'm at work! (And then we're going to hang out with his mum, right after I get out of work. Whoop whoop.) And my office is... Actually more accessible than it has been for a while, ngl, because all of the boxes of shite that were making it hard to move my chair are where the bookcase used to be. I'm planning to scrub the walls down with vinegar next time I get a chance, just to try to stave off this problem again, and Lex is gonna pick us up a dehumidifier, maybe.

    So, that's how my day's been. How're all y'all?
    spindizzy: Alice waving her arms with a love heart over her head. (Yay!)
    It works and everything! I got a phonecall yesterday from the insurance people saying "Hi, we might have... Sent your laptop back unfixed? By accident? PLEASE PICK IT UP AND CHECK IT WE'RE REALLY SORRY ABOUT THAT THERE WAS A MIX-UP AT THE FACTORY AND WE HAVE NO RECORDS OF WHO IS FIXED AND WHO ISN'T!" but I picked it up today and it worked!

    (I have no idea if they actually did anything to it? I left a post-it in it with the notes of what I tried to fix it, and it was still where I left it when I took it out, but that could be the people fixing it being really nice? And even if they just placeboed me, I AM OKAY WITH THAT BECAUSE MY LAPTOP IS WORKING RIGHT NOW.)

    I can play Steam games again, wooooo! And I've been poking my nano really slowly and terribly, so I need to try to co-ordinate my documents back into one piece for that.

    ... Also, it is good to know that my reflexes are still fucking EXCELLENT, because Lex shouted "NO!" at something and slammed his laptop closed next to me and I was huddled into a ball with my hand up to protect my face before I even processed the noise! FUCKING. AWESOME. REFLEXES. Like, unnecessary reflexes? But I am impressed with my little self.

    (My nano story is so bad, guys, SO BAD.)
    spindizzy: I feel like I spent the whole day fighting guys in rubber suits! D: (I feel like I've fought fake aliens)
    It was a long week at work, and while I know that it was only four days? Maybe? Work and Doing Shit With Other People That Takes Until Gone Ten In The Evening six evenings a week with HORDES OF PEOPLE and trying to stake out enough brain to write something on my shitty tiny tablet keyboard... I am tired. I am really, fucking, tired.

    Not made any word count progress on Nano this week, even though there have been so much BLINDING REALISATIONS THAT SOLVE MY PLOT that I nearly broke my pen writing them down. And every time I look at the screen these last few days I go "I am tired, do I want to write?" an irritatingly smug, perky voice goes "If you really wanted to be a writer you'd make the time to write no matter how crap you felt!" and then I want to punch people in the face.

    I think I'm just coming to accept that week two of my three-week schedule rotation is a bastard for my brain, especially with my sleep cycle, and I just WON'T get anything done this week. Gonna have to start planning for ways to work around it so I'm not fucking blind-sided every time.
    spindizzy: The ordinary are so frequently oblivious to the extraordinary. (Hard at work)
    Right, I don't know what happened to my laptop exactly because I wasn't there, but Lex said that it was in the bag I carry it around in, he took out the bottle of drink that was serving as a counterweight in the bag, and the whole thing fell on the floor. The laptop turned on again, then died; after that the lights would come on, but not the screen. I checked it with my mate's external monitor; nothing doing there either. After much faffing with batteries and wires, I got it to turn on again long enough to throw all of my text files into Dropbox, then it died again. More faffing, got it to load again... Died as soon as it hit the desktop.

    FORTUNATELY, I have an accidental damage warranty, so I took it into Staples today and they're gonna ship it out Friday and give me a loaner laptop.

    (SHORT TANGENT: I don't understand why people of A Certain Age bitch like crazy when they find out that I have the extended warranty on my computer. It has been EXCELLENT VALUE for me, every time, and people keep going "Oh, but the manufacturer's warranty!" 1) Doesn't cover accidental damage. 2) My laptops CONSISTENTLY die the month after the manufacturer's warranty ends. Plus, my laptops get A LOT OF USE - I use mine as a gaming rig, and for writing like a bastard, even now I'm not writing essays or job hunting anymore - so they die! It happens! And gets fixed by someone who knows what they're doing, or replaced if they can't fix it/it's the third time of calling in with it. I have had a new £600 laptop nearly every three years since 2008, for the cost of a warranty! THAT SOUNDS FINE TO ME. /END TANGENT)

    ... My main worry right now is whether or not "unscrewing the battery", because Toshiba Satellites are STUPID and have the battery held in with screws, has voided my warranty. I hope to fuck it hasn't, because I think "taking the battery out" is a reasonable thing that you should be able to expect to do? But I can't remember and I can't check because my warranty is currently locked in the boot of Lex's car and he's gone to bed. SUPER PARANOID about this, but I didn't think of that until after I'd applied the screwdriver and then it's too fucking late. I didn't open up the main part of the computer, so MAYBE it's fine? But on the other hand, *TOUCHES ALL OF THE WOOD BECAUSE IF I HAVE VOIDED THIS WARRANTY I AM GOING TO CRY WITH REGRET FOR ACTUAL YEARS*

    ... Lex is really upset over this and I have no idea how to make him feel better. If it can't be fixed, then I'll be pissed, but right now it is looking like a problem that could be fixed in five minutes with a screwdriver if that wouldn't void the warranty. But considering that I freely admit I am histrionic about the small things and chill about the huge things, I guess me not freaking out might be scary? I dunno. I'm just gonna have to wait the two weeks and see what they say. Am currently running off my tablet and its tiny external keyboard and Lex's laptop while he's asleep, so somewhat sporadic until at least Friday.
    spindizzy: Moko and Kyoko from Skip Beat!, Moko emoting angry skulls and Kyoko emoting love hearts. (WHY DO YOU LOVE ME)
    Writing about it on my teeny tiny tablet keyboard when I am le tired is not going to end well, but suffice it to say, I'll be taking it to get fixed tomorrow with any luck.

    Fuck today, man.
    spindizzy: (We'll skip to the part where I kick ass)
    I am tired. It has been A WEEK (I have worked open-close seven out of nine days, and one of the other days I was working the late shift; I AM LE TIRED) and Lex has fucked off down south to hang out with $douchebagexhousemate. OH WELL. I can live with him being gone. It's not like when we were living apart before. And if I have to keep texting him about stuff I want to show him when he gets back to keep my lizard brain quiet, then that's what I'll do.

    (Q: "Susan, how grumpy are you that Lex took more time off to hang out with $douchebagexhousemate than he did to hang out with you round your birthdays?"
    A: "Mostly not! Because I know he was going to see his ma and that fell through! But if I don't get to hang out with him after he comes back I am calling bullshit on this whole fucking week.")

    ... I miss my husband and I need a hug and FUCK EVERYTHING.
    spindizzy: (Be happy!)
    • It was Lex's birthday last Saturday, and there were cuddles and breakfast out (okay, it was only at the 'spoons, but there were Eggs Benedict and god knows he wouldn't have got those at home) and a new Pathfinder sourcebook for him (Occult Adventures! It has... WEIRD THINGS. And cool things, like actual classes for playing fake mediums and mountebanks.) and a biiiig box of Magic cards. \o/ And then we went to a friend's flat and played samurai in space, planning a raid to go and recapture a prison escapee. We had fun! Or at least Lex SAID he had fun, and that's got to be close enough, right?

    • (Had the week between off work, which has been nice, because not having to get up! And awful, because Sunday/Monday we were sick as dogs, so my sense of time and productivity has gone straight to the dogs.)

    • And... It's my birthday today! I got really cute socks and a new top and Manga Dogs (as opposed to Dogs, manga) and more One Piece and Netrunner(!!!) and a Machi Koro expansion and Mad Max: Fury Road (WITNESS!!!)! And I got to hang out at my mum's and eat DELICIOUS ROAST FOOD and have a nice, peaceful day. :D

    • (Although I found out that my niece is pregnant again through her signing her card "love from [Niece], [Great-nephew], and bump!" so, um, I guess that's a thing! I'm happy for her and hope the pregnancy goes well!)

    • We spent most of the day playing Netrunner, which is fun! It's your standard dystopian-future runners-v.-megacorps background, but hi, my name is Susan, I am into that. And it does this thing I've not seen before, where you get a big box with like, seven partially built decks (four megacorps, three runners), and two packs of cards you can throw into any of the other decks and just... Go. Here are your decks! Here is enough difference in playstyle and mechanics that you can happily sit and mix-and-match for a while without buying any of the expansions! ... Plus, even though it LOOKS more complicated, it's actually a bit more intuitive than Magic the Gathering, so I am good with this.

    • Manga Dogs is lots of fun, because it's a just-turned-pro manga artist tearing her hair out over people who sit around talking about how GREAT their lives are going to be when they're professional manga creators... But oh, working on manga is too tiring, maybe tomorrow. I KNOW THIS FEEL. FROM BOTH SIDES. It is great.

    • I'm not sure I spent enough time hugging my mum today, but it was good to see her.

    spindizzy: She is too fond of books and it has turned her brain. (Too fond of books)
    But somehow, all of the words are muddling up. I know what I want to say! I know how it is supposed to sound! And it is just. Not happening. Might try long-handing it instead, just because that way I can't just throw my hands up and delete absolutely everything.

    In recent news:

    • Last Monday was seven years since my dad's death. Still not sure how to feel. Made it through most of the day feeling... Okay? Not happy, obviously, but okay? I gentled myself around and Lex looked after me really well. Then douchebag ex-housemate was a douche and I ended up sobbing my heart out all over Lex when he was trying to sleep.
      • (Douchebag ex-housemate, funnily enough, is SUPER BLOCKED NOW on any form of social media I think he has access to, because seeing his name pisses me off.)

    • My volunteer gig had to let me go, because with my new job I would only be able to show up one week in three and that's really not enough. I got a really sweet card though! And chocolate! And I've encouraged one of the volunteers there to apply for the same library that I went for on the grounds of "Hey, we can keep our unofficial queer as fuck book/lunch club going! There's a Wetherspoons literally round the corner from the library!
      • I have no idea if offering a character reference would count for or against her. She is genuinely a good worker (at least at the place we volunteered), has management experience, and really knows her shit! I'm just not sure of the etiquette of mentioning that and if it could adversely affect the hiring process.

    • Bitch Planet is fucking awesome and seriously knows its target audience. Will post screengrabs and flail at... Some point. I swear to fuck that Things Mean A Lot had a review of it, but I can't find it to save me life. One of the Book Smugglers was smart about it, I'm sure you can believe them until I can words again.

    • You do not understand how much I need to words about Transistor. I have - I have thoughts, okay. And I want fic. And I just had to take a break from writing this post to write notes to myself about my Transistor feels, so clearly something is working!
      • "Apparently my voice acting preferences are 'men who sound like they need blowjobs and a nice cup of tea to make their day better'" - actual thing I said while playing Transistor. Because the male lead sounds like he needs to be put to bed with blowjobs and tea. ... As does Kaiden Alenko, but that is a long-standing problem.
        • [profile] heyheyrenay is probably giving me the side-eye as that is not how Shepard/Garrus works. ... I have nothing I can really say to that. Except I may have this problem with Steve in ME3 too.

    • Getting your period AGAIN after only two weeks is fucking bullshit and I would like to complain to the management.

    • I don't know if I've mentioned this, but as part of my switching jobs phase I've got to do as many of my hours at both libraries as I can manage, which is DOUBLY fun as the job I'm leaving keeps fucking up my extra hours - in that I end up scheduled for them and not told, or scheduled for days when I'm working somewhere else - and oh Jesus I'm tired. But on the plus side, I've done some maths and if I don't get fucked around again, I'm working 123 hours this month! That's almost like REAL PERSON hours! Presumably with corresponding amounts of pay! ... Not bad for a fourteen-hour-a-week contract.

    • I have so many SECRET THINGS to work on, it's hard to choose where to start.

    • I've spent the weekend comfort-reading terrible fanfic, so if you want me to read something NOW MIGHT BE THE TIME. Like, I might be on a bit of an upswing? In that I'm now able to go "This is OOC and I now care enough to stop reading" whereas yesterday I was like "This is OOC but there's a heist and kissing so I don't care." (From Eroica With Love fic: sometimes there is mission/heist fic where they kiss and no one has a secret rapist in their backstory or gets sexually assaulted for the purposes of comfort sex! Finding the correct filters for that is an absolute bastard.) (... I also got linked to some The Iron Bull/Dorian Pavus fic, and it's like "All I know about these characters is that Iron Bull is awesome and Dorian has such a mixed reaction, but I'm okay with this fic?") (Iron Vega and Krem Shep ride agaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaain! And that is all I know about Iron Bull is one sentence.)

    • Is late and I should sleep. Good night darlings. *mwah*


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