spindizzy: She is too fond of books and it has turned her brain. (Book turned brain)
2014-10-31 01:52 am

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2015-09-22 12:31 am
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[sticky entry] Sticky: Prompts?

Hey guys - this post is going to be a sticky, so feel free to come back to it whenever you fancy! I'm doing my best to make it easy to find.

I WOULD LIKE YOU GUYS TO LEAVE ME PROMPTS, IF THAT'S OKAY. Any fandom you think I'm into or would like, any/no pairings, as many comments/prompts as you'd like. I just... Want to make a repository of things for me to write in the future that's a bit less intimidating than going through the [community profile] ff_exchange backlist. Like, I won't promise that I'll get to everything, but I really like the idea of having a fixed place to look for inspiration?

PLEASE HELP ME TO SEE HOW LONG THIS CHAIN OF POSTING FIC EVERYDAY CAN LAST.
spindizzy: (I know what's going on)
2017-08-21 10:59 pm

Reaction Shot: Princess Principal episode 7

MAN, YOU KNOW WHAT I LOVE? WOMEN SUPPORTING OTHER WOMEN. You know what episode seven of Princess Principal gave me? Fucking teenage girl spies supporting other women and helping their lives become better. YES. MORE OF THIS.

Princess Principal Episode Seven )
spindizzy: A picture of Deadpool in mask and tuxedo, shrugging. (Fourth wall? What fourth wall?)
2017-08-20 12:11 am

I went to Worldcon! (Deadpool is my Fancy Party icon now)

Someone (I think [twitter.com profile] faintdreams?) asked if I would be doing a comparison of Nine Worlds to Worldcon and... Honestly I don't think it would be fair of me to do that, because Nine Worlds was a really chilled, relaxing thing for me and at Worldcon I was a constant ball of anxiety. I am sorry to everyone who met at Worldcon for not being my best me! You were all absolutely lovely!

(... Yeah, I went with Jay and Lex and a) the accessibility of airports is their rant to have and not mine, but seriously if Jay wants me to swear vengeance and also write a thousand angry letters against our airline I will do that; and b) Lex realised very quickly that the convention was not his idea of fun, which he was fine with but it turned into an anxiety circuit for me, because my brain was doing the fun thing of internalising "Oh, wow, I am a terrible wife, Lex paid like £700 to be here and he's not enjoying it at all," and literally refused to take in the part where he said that it was worth it because he got to support me during the Hugos.

Like, that was Friday, and I did not take in the "Oh, Lex paid the £700 because he loves me and the Hugos are a big deal to me," until Monday.

I still feel a bit "Fuck me I am a terrible friend," but Jay is recovering and apparently had a good time despite everything, and Lex is glad to be back at work, so it all shook out!)

YOU SEE WHY I CAN'T REALLY COMPARE MY NINE WORLDS EXPERIENCE TO THE WORLDCON ONE. I will say that Worldcon is a lot more... Crammed? Than Nine Worlds? Like, Nine Worlds leaves plenty of time between panels for people to, y'know, get to the next panel, have a drink, eat something... Whereas Worldcon is Hot Fuzz levels of "THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING GOING ON!" There is always something happening, and if you want to get between panels in time to actually get let in, you have to leave your first panel fifteen minutes early or run the risk of not getting there before they start turning people away. (Unless of course, you're that douche who ignores the "No standing in the back due to fire safety rules" and lets yourself in anyway.) Also, the panels are maximum forty-five minutes long, maybe twenty-thirty if they want to take questions, which feels LUDICROUSLY short after Nine Worlds. I guess when there's like six thousand people, it makes sense to cram as much in as possible? But it was definitely a massive scale-up. (Plus, I really really miss the pronoun stickers Nine Worlds has. And the no-photography lanyards. And the markers for your badge of whether you want to talk to people. ... I think what I'm saying is that Worldcon has more stuff to do, but Nine Worlds has more set-it-and-forget-it accessibility, I guess?)

(If there were any panels you missed, a few of them are up on youtube!)

BUT WHINGING ABOUT MY MENTAL HEALTH ASIDE: HEY GUYS, I WENT TO WORLDCON, WHO WANTS TO HEAR ABOUT ALL OF THE COOL PEOPLE I MET?

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It was a good trip, apart from the anxiety and airports being made of stress! I might try it again when it gets to Dublin (I can just GET THE FERRY, she says, more in hope than expectation) to see if it's any different? It was lovely to meet everyone, and finally put like... People to words? And just THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH, you were great!
spindizzy: A close-up of Yuna's face while she's wearing her wedding dress. (And this is where it all falls down)
2017-08-15 11:16 pm

Reaction Shot: Fate/Apocrypha and Princess Principal episodes six

I promised that I’d be back with the bullet points and yelling, and look! Fate/Apocrypha is back! Oh my beautiful darling show, it’s been too long! *dreamy sigh*

So let’s get this rolling by yelling about Fate Apocrypha Episode Six! )

And this episode of Princess Principal was really fucking bleak in an entirely obvious way, but it was still bleak, as a fair warning. Caution warning for physically abusive parents and alchoholism! Let's go and yell about episode six. )
spindizzy: Sherlock Holmes as played by Jeremy Brett, laughing with a hand covering his face. (You do make me laugh)
2017-08-15 09:30 pm

It's different if you KNOW that you're going to see an adaptation, okay

So, funny story. Back in 2012, Lex and I went to Manchester Comicon because it was there and we were there. And while we're there, I spot a guy with Queen & Country books on his table. I love Queen & Country, so I forget not to make eye contact with people trying to sell you things, and end up buying a different spy thriller with a female lead off him. And just the other week, I spotted a book by him set in the same universe at work, so I grab it!

Fastforward to tonight. Lex and I are in the pictures, the opening credits are rolling. "Oh hey, Executive Producer Antony Johnston! I've read his books!"

Credits keep rolling. "Based on the Oni Press graphic novel The Coldest City? WAIT, NO, I'VE READ THAT ONE, I DIDN'T KNOW THIS WAS BASED OFF A GRAPHIC NOVEL!"

... And that is how one of my most anticipated films of the year managed to spoil the twist for me with its opening credits.
spindizzy: (Be happy!)
2017-08-13 11:57 pm

I keep trying to write about, y'know, THE HUGOS, and it doesn't work!

I keep trying and failing, because I don't know what to say apart from we won a Hugo!

(Anxiety keeps trying to make this not a big deal and something that I shouldn't talk about? But also hello, it is the biggest award in the field, no, this is exciting.)

Like, sometimes Lady Business is an odd experience, because it takes up so much of my mental bandwidth (in a good way), but also it's not something that I get to acknowledge in my offline life that much? So going to Helsinki, getting introduced as part of Lady Business and having people go "Oh, I've heard of you!" was just... That, on its own, that was amazing. And there were people who specifically went out of their way to tell me they were huge fans, and I can only hope I said something articulate, because they like our stuff, and they were excited about us, and we made them happy and I have no idea how to express how much that meant to me.

... I crack a lot of jokes about how I'm writing for six people and a shoelace, but I think this might be the first time I ever really took in that I'm not. It's a little bit terrifying, but it's also... I'm grateful. A handful of strangers went "Oh, you guys!" and now I've got happy tears running down my face.

So, uh, I guess what I'm trying to say is thank you. Thank you to everyone who nominated us and voted for us, thank you everyone who reads us whether you care about the Hugos or not, thank you to all of the other finalists in our category who were just so lovely and kind and gracious (again, god, I hope I was half as articulate back because I was so flustered at the time!) and just... Thank you. Everyone's been so kind, and I just needed you all to know I appreciate it.

...

... That's enough painful sincerity for now, I think. I'll be back to your regularly scheduled bullet points and yelling tomorrow, promise.
spindizzy: (Be happy!)
2017-08-08 10:52 pm

#nineworlds yelling (part two of two)

OKAY, continuing the post on What I Did On My London Holiday, because the other one got to like 2500 words and if this is more of the same, it's going to be full-on too many damn pages for any man to understand.

(... Also writing this is reminding me of all the points where I was unintentionally a jerk and just D: D: D: D: I'M SORRY, NEXT TIME I WILL DO BETTER.)

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It was a good trip! It was fun, I was only like, moderate levels of anxious despite being in a completely new place with lots of new people! And there were some really good costumes! There was a TARDIS full of bras, Madame Vastra, a knitted Squirrel Girl (no seriously), and a knitted Wonder Woman, lemmings... There was a Commander Shepard and a Loki that I liked but I've not seen any photos cross my feeds. I... I think I'd go again! The tickets for next year are up, so I could always be efficient and do that now...

(People have been going "Soooooo how many books did you buy?" and people who only know me online are like "Ten! That's a lot!" and people who know me offline are just "Ten? That's really good for you!" ... I think that shade is being thrown my way and I entirely deserve it.)
spindizzy: (Be happy!)
2017-08-08 10:41 pm

I went to #nineworlds! (Uh, part one of two?)

I went to my first residential convention! It was kinda scary but really good and I had a lot of fun and... Was a lot less anxious during the whole thing than I expected! Like, my social anxiety is picking over everything, but I can still do a lot of happy yelling! (Obligatory livetweet thread!)

(Also I apologise if this seems excessively... Me me me? I kinda did the maths on "sounding like a self-centred jerk" or "possibly infringing people's privacy by talking about them on the internet" and came down on the side of being a jerk? I SPOKE TO MANY PEOPLE WHO WERE SMART AND FUNNY AND DELIGHTFUL, I am just... Not representing that well?)

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Okay, that's quite long enough, splitting it here, back in a sec.
spindizzy: Alice in chibi mode looking really confused, with the text "curiouser and curiouser" above her. (Curiouser and curiouser)
2017-08-08 12:00 am

Reaction shots: Fate/Apocrypha Ep 5 and Princess Principal Ep 4

Man, watching TV when it comes out is REALLY WEIRD. WHERE IS THE REST OF FATE/APOCRYPHA, GUYS, WHY CAN'T I MAINLINE IT ALL YET.

Okay, so, Fate/Apocrypha )

AND THEN WE WATCHED PRINCESS PRINCIPAL which was honestly happier but I still have an abundance of emotions about everything, so.

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spindizzy: Kyoko stretching and looking smug. (*smug*)
2017-07-31 04:13 pm

Reaction shot: Princess Principal episodes 1-3

Lex found another show for us to watch together, which is exciting because there's very few things that we're both into? But this one's called Princess Principal, and it appears to be about teenage girls who are spies at boarding school in a magical gaslights/steampunk version of London where it's... Been walled off entirely from the Commonwealth? The "Kingdom of Albion" and the "Albion Commonwealth" are completely separated by this wall. ... Sure, show, I am gonna go with this because teenage spies with steampunk magic.

As the warning usually goes, this is written after the fact so things won't be in order/I'm going to skim over important things, and also ~spoilers!~

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In conclusion, I suspect that this is going to be super male-gazey, but hopefully not enough that I need to nope out because I am really enjoying the characters and the schemes, and I need to know what is going on with Angé and Charlotte, I need it.
spindizzy: (Be happy!)
2017-07-31 01:09 pm

*kicks feet excitedly*

Okay, this morning I have:

  • Dreamed an entirely new character for an urban fantasy story I've been noodling at, and now I need to decide whether I want to keep it as a super slowburn queer romance and just add her as another protagonist, make her the protagonist and cut the romance entirely, genderswap everyone to keep the original romance but make it f/f, make her the protagonist and keep the original one around as a side character and keep the romance...

  • Been to Page 45 and got an AMAZING HAUL OF STUFF I WASN'T EXPECTING – DC Bombshells 3 (I... Still need to read the first two...), volume two of the Gangsta spin off about Marco (volume one was harrowing; here we go, I guess!), Boundless by Jillian Tamaki, new Lazarus floppy, new Wicked + Divine floppy, and the first in a new Zodiac Starforce arc. I DIDN'T KNOW THEY WERE DOING THAT, OH MY GOSH, I AM SO READY. ... I am also looking forward to [twitter.com profile] fangirlpodcast reviewing the collected edition next year, that'll be great.

  • Got an email from the university saying that I PASSED MY FINAL MODULE OF BSL, I PASSED I PASSED I PASSED, everything is amazing.

  • Been shopping for sandals and ACTUALLY FOUND SOME THAT I WILL WEAR. £10 job from the Dorothy Perkins sale shelf, fuck aye.

  • Paid for my sign language class while trying on shoes, actually, because the future is amazing.

  • Walked into the library and realised that I left the book I need to return at home; when I asked at the counter if the guy could renew it till Wednesday he just went "fuck it" and renewed it all the way for me despite being on my last renewal.

  • Investigated what used to be the café at Nottingham Central Library, only to discover it's a room apparently dedicated to writing and programming games! The display books were on writing interactive fiction and twine games, there's a whole shelf about choose your adventures books and programming, and they have what appears to be three computers just set up for text-based games. Guys, guys can we raid it for its knowledge?



What a good morning. I felt rubbish at first because clothes shops are hot and and make me feel like a potato who should not be there (I found one (1) dress above a size 18, good work Debenhams), even though I like looking at pretty clothes, but I escaped to Page 45 and it's just... What a good morning! Thank you universe for this convergence of cool things, I am super grateful. <3
spindizzy: (*blinding realisation*)
2017-07-30 11:41 am

Good to know, I guess? (TMI)

Okay, the DOWNSIDE is that it turns out that the whole "three days of heightened anxiety and suicidal ideation" thing is a symptom of my PMT and is probably going to be sticking around for a while, but on the plus side I can totally justify my ridiculous levels of tracking shit in my diary with stickers because tracking bad brain days with stickers is literally how I noticed.

... Like, my brain kicking me HAS replaced most of the other symptoms, except for the "My brain... Doesn't work" days, but I'm not sure it's a fair trade.
spindizzy: (We'll skip to the part where I kick ass)
2017-07-25 05:06 pm

Reaction Shot: Fate/Apocrypha Episode 4

*takes a deep breath*

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WHERE IS THE NEXT EPISODE, I NEED IT.
spindizzy: (Be happy!)
2017-07-24 02:43 pm

My main question is whether Edge-Lit has a hyphen

Hello friend humans! I went to my first bookish/writing convention weekend before last, and it was super fun! I livetweeted a lot of it, but y'all know how I feel about yelling in bullet point lists, right?

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IN CONCLUSION I had a really good time and might go back for the November one (I think they called it Sledge-Lit and I am just uggggggh). Might see if [twitter.com profile] captainraz or [twitter.com profile] splend want to come with me. It was just... Really heartening? Being in a building where everyone wanted to be there and talk about writing and publishing and having been published and it was just... So lovely. So fun! It was looking up and going "Wow, my genres are full of amazing, smart people who write good books," and this not being questioned. *clutches face*
spindizzy: I feel like I spent the whole day fighting guys in rubber suits! D: (I feel like I've fought fake aliens)
2017-07-20 07:24 pm

Someone tell me the news about the Linkin Park lead singer isn't true D:

Just saw an article saying that the lead singer of Linkin Park has died, that can't be right. That's a part of my teenage years in human form, that can't be right.
spindizzy: (*jedi powers*)
2017-07-18 11:57 am

Reaction Shot: Fate/Apocrypha episode 3

I probably have more to say about this one, but I have forgotten most of it I'm afraid. (Lex managed to distract me by watching Doctor Who afterwards while I was trying to do a transcription, so my brain has glitched and rebooted to "Wow, that Missy lady is pretty and I have no idea what's going on but she threw the Master up against a wall and now I might ship it."

IN NON-SHIPPING NEWS: THIS THING.

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Yeah, I have no ships here yet, just anti-ships. Maybe I'm not well.
spindizzy: Jensen making his robot dinosaur hump his DIY dog. (Make the dollies kiss)
2017-07-18 11:46 am

Reaction Shot: Fate/Apocrypha episodes 1 and 2

Hello my darlings! Lex is showing me Fate/Apocrypha as it comes out, because the Fate franchise is that rare beast: a fandom that we both like.

I am very cautiously excited, because this could be great. I am going to see about rough reaction shots as we go, you may well end up tracking me going through pits of despair as the characters I love die and the characters I was hoping for a gruesome death for get to live past the ending. (I am still not over Fate/Zero or Unlimited Bladeworks, it turns out.) WE SHALL SEE. But yes, this is all written after the fact, so nothing will be in the correct order, I'm afraid, just as I think of it.

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spindizzy: (Done)
2017-07-18 09:59 am

Not sure if this is a "dammit patriarchy" or "dammit boomers"

Me: It is going to be 25 degrees later and I'll be in work, better wear a cute dress so that I don't cook!
Dress: *is cute, also has straps*
Me: Eh, my body hair is showing but I don't care.
Me: *remembers that I work with baby boomers who would 100% go "Susan, I don't mean to be rude, but..." about it*
Me: ... Okay, fine, but I draw the line at shaving my legs.

The beeb says t's going to hit highs of TWENTY NINE degrees tomorrow, and the building I work in a) was built 113 years ago, and b) had the ceilings lowered to add more floor upstairs and trap more heat. So EITHER, I wash this dress as soon as I get home and pray that it dries quickly enough that I can wear it tomorrow, or just wear a skirt and t-shirt, take an extra shirt to swap into when I get out of work so I'm not utterly revolting when I get to the pub for Pathfinder. Only downside is that that skirt is a lot heavier so I might end up more warm and sweaty.

... Or, do a combo of the two; wear the skirt, let my dress dry at work, get changed after. Boom, planning.
spindizzy: (Done)
2017-07-16 10:59 pm
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So I finished FFXV! Quick thoughts:

FUCK CHAPTER THIRTEEN TO THE DEEPEST PITS OF HELL, my god.

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Basically, there's like a five chapter chunk between chapters nine and fourteen that is terrible and the anti-fun, but chapter fifteen is trying to convince me that I did like the game really...
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2017-07-16 01:57 pm
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Okay, had a thought re: FFXV's terrible character work

So I finished the game! I am still turning the ending over in my head, but here is initial thoughtsI think - and please believe me when I say that I never thought I'd hear myself say this about anything - that it needed to crib more from FFXIII.

HEAR ME OUT, OKAY.

(Cutting for spoilers RIGHT through the game and Chapter 13 Verse 2 and also for "Nah, mate, I can totally fix this, my uncle's a mechanic game designer.")

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