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+ Fanwork Recs.
-- Scream about Politics of Love in a comment because I'm five months late
+ Review Partners by Gerri Hill for the Lesbrary
+ Reaction shots
-- Feminist press event I went to
-- Mad Max Fury Road Black and Chrome
+ Fangirl Happy Hour
-- Type episode 83
-- Editing pass episode 77 because I promised Nay I'D only do two hours a day
+ Fic? Fic.
+ Eight Book Minimum because that is ALSO five months late.
spindizzy: (Now it sounds stupid)
(And the Americans in my social group are just like "Pfft, I drive four hours to buy milk, up hill both ways in the snow.")

This weekend we (Me, Lex, Housemate Mike, and our mate Chris) went to see a couple of our ex-housemates, a couple of mates that we haven't seen in maybe four years, and seven of their friends that no one told us would be there until the day before. Hahahasob. My hopes for this trip were... Not high. Especially because we get there, there's a massive horde of strangers, and we're there maybe an hour before someone goes "So, how about a booze run?"

It was... Fine? I think? I interacted with one of my ex-housemates for maybe an hour all told across the entire weekend, which is about the right amount of time for us to interact without upset. Friday night, like I said, was DICEY – sitting in a room with strangers who are a) drinking and b) watching shite on youtube on the tv is not my idea of a good time, so I couldn't really relax? But Saturday we managed to split into smaller groups for boardgames that I knew, so even playing with strangers wasn't completely terrible? And when we went to dinner with literally everybody, I managed to be sitting next to two garrulous nerd dudes, and you know what you can often get garrulous nerd dudes to do? Talk at great length about a topic that they're interested in. So we managed to get them onto the topic of World Of Darkness and the differences between old!WoD and new!WoD, which is a topic I know exactly enough about the ask questions and not enough to mind people talking at me at great length on it, so I could listen to people being excited about topics they're interested in. And then it was "play a couple of boardgames that I don't usually play, with people that I know" and then retreat to a sofa to read The Obelisk Gate because I needed to catch up on my Fangirl Happy Hour reading.

(Their house is SUPER FANCY, holy fuck. One of my ex-housemates is a vet, so she earns ridiculous money and her house is amazing. They have have like a three-bed house with two bathrooms, two reception rooms, and a kitchen big enough to serve as a dining room. And it's all wood floors and fancy appliances and reclining sofas and a tv almost as big as I am. My jealousy knows no bounds. Especially because I'm reminded that her manga collection is amazing.)

I THINK I did okay. I didn't fight with anyone, I don't remember being rude to anyone, I specifically took my concentration pills to help me focus on things, I don't think I really spoke to many people outside of playing boardgames but honestly that works in everyone's favour for something with as many people as that. It means that I probably didn't catch up with people like I ought to have, but that is still the better alternative to catching up and ending up picking a fight. There were only a few points where I wanted to scream a lot. It wasn't how I'd have chosen to spend my weekend, but it was okay. And now I don't need to see them again for at least a year.
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Goodnight just laughs, relying on drunk to cover heartsick, and smiling wide enough to flash a wink of gold to cover the seams. "I can't get in a Jaeger, Sam, and you know it. I'd blow the base without even knowing it was there."

Sam inclines his head, allowing for the possibility. Sam knows he's got the dubious honour of being the only one he'd admit that to, because Lord knows that Sam's seen him worse off than this.

(He had the idea once of asking Sam if he'd go to the mat with him, see if they were compatible, but he doesn't know what'd be worse – knowing once and for all that they're not, or their being compatible and Sam finally seeing the coward heart that beats in Goodnight's chest and pulses run run run.

Even knowing for certain whether Sam's actually got that death wish wouldn't make up for that.)

"I need you, Goody," Sam says again, and puts his hand on Goodnight's shoulder. It's warm and steadying, and Goodnight takes a deep breath that shudders on the way in.

"If that's true, then God help us all." But he doesn't brush Sam's hand away, and he stays in his chair while Sam talks, Sam's thumb rubbing absently against his shoulder in time with his heart beating run, run, run.




He doesn't know who's more surprised to find that he doesn't run, him or Sam. Sam keeps his cards close to his chest, but he actually trips over his "Good morning" when Goodnight joins him in the hotel dining room.
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Hugo Award image showing that LADY BUSINESS IS A NOMINEE!


I AM STILL YELLING BECAUSE LADY BUSINESS MADE IT ONTO THE BALLOT AGAIN!

I am so proud of us, oh my god, look at this. Look! And we're not there because someone else dropped out or as a reaction to Sad/Rabid Puppy shenanigans, we're just... There. Legitimately. Because people nominated us because maybe they like us or something?

I am crying, guys, oh my goodness. Thank you everyone who nominated us! Thank you so much!

This ballot is really exciting though -- there are so many categories where I'm looking at it going "I don't know how I'm going to choose, everything I recognise I really liked!" and that's how it's supposed to be. I mean, there's a couple of duds, but that's fine? Those are avoidable? For the most part, I'm stuck on little things like there not being a single white dude in the best novel category, or how I recognise so many of these names I am happy to see them!

My nomination strategy was literally "What is going to make me clap like a seal if I see it on the ballot?" and I am so glad that strategy actually paid off.

Which is the long, tearful way of saying "Thank you so much everyone, I am honoured to be on this ballot with this company, and congratulations to all the nominees!" (Especially my fellow [community profile] ladybusiness folks, who I'm sure I haven't hugged enough over this development.)

I... Guess it's a good thing I assembled a party to go to Worldcon in Helsinki, then?
spindizzy: (*blinding realisation*)
(Q: Susan, aren't you like seven chapters and 60 levels into the game?
A: SHHHH.)

SUDDENLY why Noctis is so protective of the fucking junkpile of a car makes sense! There are points in the game where I'm just like WE HAVE SIXTY THOUSAND GIL, WE CAN JUST BUY A NEW CAR but now it makes more sense.

I am enjoying FFXV but god I wish some of the characterisation from the side-stories made it into canon.
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As of 15:15 yesterday, Lex and I have been married for three years! This is exciting and a little bit terrifying, not gonna lie, but I am super excited and proud of us. <3 (I love him so much, help)

We took the week off work, which we spent... Vegging and playing video games? And we spent the weekend in Newark of all places! We had A LOT of good Indian food - the first hotel we stayed at, because they doubled booked our second night and we had to switch hotels, was a restaurant with rooms to let, which was nice and convenient? And we went to the Air Museum in Newark, which has A LOT of old planes and helicopters - SO MANY, it's really cool! And apparently a lot of them were training planes, so they have lots of clear instructions written on the side (no, seriously, lots of labels. Although apparently my photo of the plane with "cut here" written on it and dotted lines didn't save properly, I am sad. And there was a Vulcan bomber that you could go up inside to look at and see the instruments and where the team would have sat! It was terrifying to get into and out of up and down a tiny ladder (I am SUPER TERRIFIED of heights), but I got a sticker for doing it anyway and only crying a little on the way back down! So many hugs required afterwards. And we went to the Civil War museum, which was really cool! They had an exhibit on Lawrence of Arabia, which (who?) I know sweet fuck-all about beyond the clips from the film in Prometheus.

... There was a lot of nesting this weekend because we cuddled with books and Civ 5 and Robot Wars, which is about the best evening I can imagine, to be honest. <3

(EXCEPT that we were in the countryside, which is where the internet goes to die.

Me: I find country roads inherently suspicious.
Lex: *eyebrows*
Me: Okay, yes, the obvious counterpoint is that I find the countryside itself inherently suspicious, BUT STILL.

... Guess which of us grew up in the countryside and which of us is a massive townie.)

What else did we do? Oh, went to see Kong: Skull Island, which I sure have SOME THOUGHTS about, but they're all jumbled up. I appreciate that doesn't matter when I'm just doing bullet points anyway, but come on brain. I THINK I liked it? But if you looked at the trailer and went "Wait, do they seriously have the indigenous population of the island as silent background figures who never get lines and all of their exposition is delivered by a crazy white dude?" YEAH THAT IS SURE A THING THAT THEY DID, which is a fucking shame because I like most of the cast? And I was super excited that there was no kissing? I DUNNO.

I think Lex had a good weekend. He said he had a good weekend, and he usually says if he's not having fun? But I'm glad I got to spend time with him and that we're married and that he's not working minimum two hours away from home anymore, so... That's what I got. That's it. How is everyone?
spindizzy: Raven looking PISSED AS FUCK. (Oh now I'm pissed)
I had a craving to write ridiculous stupid melodrama, why am I this person.

Pandora Hearts //
G | 323 words | Gilbert | Spoilers for volume one | He can't remember what Oz looks like.

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spindizzy: Text icon: "Can't talk, busy writing pseudo porn." (busy writing pseudoporn)
Spoilers through chapter six, written on my phone to please excuse
everything. Apparently all I want to write for the fandom is "Prompto has a
No Good Very Bad Day" based off random background nonsense in my
playthrough, like being able to skip a chunk of path by warp striking imps
from the floor above.

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TRUE STORY this happened in my game while I was in the thicket looking for giant toads. Will probably noodle it around into a proper fic later.

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spindizzy: Kyoko lying on the floor looking sad. (Nuuuu)
  • There is something about January/February that just knocks me and my productivity for six. I have had a cold and the worst PMT I remember having in a while, which took me down for two weeks, but I remember being a disgrace this time last year as well. Come on Susan, pull yourself together, you can do this.

  • I need to write up my notes from the talk me, [twitter.com profile] hardlyaverage and [twitter.com profile] envexenveritas went to on Pink Triangle prisoners in the Third Reich, which was... It was... Like, I thought I was okay? I took a lot of notes? And then after the talk finished I actually looked at the words that I'd written and just started shaking. That evening was a lot of "queer penguins huddling together for safety against an uncaring universe" ngl.

  • I have started playing FFXV (thank you [twitter.com profile] stubacca01 for lending me your copy!), got about three chapters in, and it's... Sure a thing? )

  • I am reading so many books and it's nice! And then I go "Oh god, I am behind on everything!" because my writing time and my reading time are the same pool of time! ... This is probably why I am failing at things.

  • I have swapped my week per page diary out for a day per page, and I don't know if it's the novelty or actually having defined times to write things down and wanting to record exact progress with my books, but I have been using my diary a lot more! [twitter.com profile] madebyjenni got me functional-yet-adorable stickers. (I am burning through these book stickers at a rate of knots, and these dice ones are marking my games.) I got so excited that I went and bought myself more because I actually have SPACE to put them in this diary! THIS IS PROBABLY A MISTAKE. BUT IT IS A REALLY CUTE MISTAKE THAT WILL PROBABLY LEAD TO MANY STICKERS ALL OVER MY DIARY.

  • I think I goofed up at work because I didn't finish a task I was given and forgot to write the explanatory note ("I have no idea where these go and didn't want to guess because we'd never see them again.")

  • ... I'm sorry I'm complaining so much, everyone, my brain is doing the "You are a failure!" dance, and I KNOW better than to pay attention to it. I know that once I get back to finishing things I am going to feel so much better, it's just the finishing things when I feel low bit that's difficult.

    It'll be fine, I'm just at the "But what if I sit quietly in a corner under a blanket and stare at the wall" part of winter. Regular service will resume when I start being able to tick boxes again.
spindizzy: (Please no)
I had hope that maybe, just maybe, our MPs wouldn't be a fucking pack of cowardly shitstains, and MORE FOOL ME.

I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fight this. I don't know if there's anywhere to run to.

... I think we lost, guys. I think we lost.
spindizzy: Victor looking over his shoulder as he holds a CD. (music)
This week has very much been "Oh god I am a slug" and (to the tune of "I'm a little hunk of tin") "I'm a useless waste of skin!" so HAVE SOME MUSIC while I try to get myself sorted.



RELATED SUBJECT: this Yuri On Ice fanvid is SUPER SPOILERS and also a really good summary of Victor and Yuri's relationship and I am made of tears.
spindizzy: (Got it!)
Okay, I have hit the point where for ease of linking I am just going to MAKE A MASTER POST and HAVE ALL OF MY REACTION SHOT LINKS IN ONE PLACE. If I was smart, I would have done this around episode three, but what can you do.

spindizzy: Finding something to live for is harder. (Gotta find something to live for)
  • Today I learned that it is possible for Betty to betray me! Apparently she has the ability to shut off my wifi as a power-saving tactic, which I didn't know but am retroactively horrified by, especially as wrangling that has been what I was doing for the last... Half hour? Forty-five minutes? I wanted to sleep, Betty, why don't you love me!

  • I got my first sets of earrings and they are hella fucking cute!

  • I have been working? I have my posts for this week mostly done (I need to wrangle the images for the one on Thursday but apart from that it's done), I have the skeletons of my other posts this month, I have learned an important lesson about signing up to bit a pinch hitter for a fandom exchange without checking what the minimum word count for pinch hits is, and... I'm doing okay. I'm trying to work through everything one at a time in chronological order of due date, which is fucking me up a bit, because that's not how I work, but... I'm getting there. Slowly. I am trying to keep looking at what I've achieved (LOOK AT WHERE YOU ARE! LOOK AT WHERE YOU STARTED!) but every time I do, I go "Yes, but all of the rest of this" and need to lie down again. orz

  • Have downloaded Zombies Run, where apparently your reward for walking around (what I am using it for) or running fucking 10ks like an absolute madwoman (what [twitter.com profile] fkth uses it for because she is amazing) is that you get to unlock chunks of story AND build a town. If people had told me this, I would have got on this ride way sooner. What I am learning is that while I LIKE Pokémon Go and games that involve a degree of mindless repetitive gameplay... I need it to be interrupted by tiny chunks of story, just to keep me motivated.

  • Related: UK people! The people who do Zombies Run want a writing trainee, it might be worth looking into.

  • I need to crochet Jill some jellyfish.

  • It's eleven days into the start of the year and my brain is going "YOU HAVE ONLY READ FIVE BOOKS!" Brain, we have a whole year. Find your chill.

  • I have shiny new doc martens! There was a sale, and our David gave me twenty quid with explicit instructions to buy shoes not frivolous things, so... I bought myself some nice, sturdy nylon docs in the half-price sale? I was tempted to get some of the LUDICROUSLY CHEAP and colourful ones, but let's settle for ones that I can wear to work first, yeah?

  • My second-oldest sister can't have biological children, so she is starting the adoption process! I am really proud of and happy for her, although wrapping my head around there being niblings in this family that were definitely chosen and 100000% wanted is really weird for me, mainly because I'm not 100% sure ANY of the kids in this family were wanted, self included. ... I nearly tagged this post as "You can't pick your family" and literally the mention of my family is about someone picking their family, fuck's sake.

  • I got nothing. I just want to write my words and have a sleep and not go to work in the morning but HAHA jokes on me for that one.
spindizzy: Yurio wiping sweat off his face while looking determined. (Determined)
I Have Finished My First Story Of The Year And It's This Shit, What Is My Life: A routine choreographed by me.

Yuri!!! On Ice // Fidgeting
G | 636 words | Yuri Plisetsky, Victor Nikiforov | Set post episode twelve, some spoilers | Yurio's hair is annoying him. That's it, that's the show.

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