spindizzy: Yurio wiping sweat off his face while looking determined. (Determined)
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I DON'T KNOW WHAT MY EMOTIONS ARE DOING BUT MY HANDS ARE SHAKING AND I AM DEFINITELY FEELING SOMETHING AND I AM SO GLAD THAT I FINISHED MY REACTION SHOTS BEFORE I WATCHED THAT

HAVE SOME VERY JUMBLED INITIAL THOUGHTS

I like how they dealt with JJ. He is an arrogant little shit who has never really struggled on the ice, so it makes sense that be messing up even slightly threw him into a tailspin. I took a certain degree of pleasure in it, then felt bad because all of his fans were so sad, but I'm sure he'll pull it together eventually.

I can't believe that Yuri said that he'd retire. I just. The fact that I read a post talking about the career of the guy who INSPIRED Yuri On Ice – who did in fact retire, for reals, lost and gone forever, his fans are apparently still gutted – meant that I could very easily believe that he was going to retire forever and have the downer ending. I don't understand Yuri's thought process unless he was going "Not competing will kill Victor by inches and his career is more important than mine (because despite a whole series of character development my self-worth is still not great)" but also

I just

*helpless hands*

Yuri and Yurio crushing Victor's records (and Yurio beating Yuri by like .2 points!) is very important to me.

Yurio is so angry about Yuri giving up. Like, anger is Yurio's primary motivation, don't get me wrong, but that's full on "I will pull out all of the stops and crush you because you don't deserve to win if you're just going to retire afterwards!" Victor is a master manipulator planting the seeds of that right before Yurio goes out to skate. And Yurio got a hug! From Victor! Who isn't really huggy except with Yuri! This means a lot to me!

The paired skating routine at the end killed me I am dead and STILL FUCKING YELLING ABOUT THIS FUCKING SHOW FROM BEYOND THE GRAVE

I worry about Victor skating and coaching at the same time, but I assume that as Yuri and Yurio and Victor are all in Russia together, this means that Yakov is taking a lot of the coaching slack so that Victor doesn't just catch fire and die.

Is my ship canon? Have I been aggressively queerbaited for twelve episodes with no release or confirmation? WHO COULD SAY OR DARE TO DREAM. ... ME, I CAN, I'M PRETTY SURE MY SHIP IS CANON.

I would have been so disappointed if Yuri had given up. But right now I just feel really emotionally drained and I don't know what to do with myself. ... Eat, shower and go to bed, because that's what I told Lex I'd do, I guess?