Susan

The trouble with blogging is that if you go away for sixth months, or the best part of two years, it feels like you should post something huge and dramatic when you get back - something with fireworks and explosions and cookies for all of the friends you haven't spoken to in so long.

... Well that's how I feel anyway.

I'm sorry that there's a distinct lack of fireworks! There should be, and possibly hugs because hugs are awesome.

(*stealth hugs*)

(Guys, more of you either need to get twitter or tell me what your usernames are so I can ambush you out of the blue. BACO I AM LOOKING AT YOU.)

I've moved in with Lex, gone full time at my office job of doom, graduated like a boss, seen my baby sister go to uni (she won't let me convince her to open an etsy store full of the stuff she knits, she's mean.), started a review blog, played in a lot of tabletop rpgs and got distracted from a lot of videogames. 2011 was an odd year that kicked me in the teeth a couple of times, but I am trying to make like this is a shojo anime and just do my best. S'all I can do, and all anyone can ask of me.

So, guys, how've all y'all been?

GUYS I AM BACK IN THE UK, I WILL HAVE INTERNET FROM THE 21ST AND I WILL POST HOW MY TRIP WENT WHEN I'VE SORTED PHOTOS.

Dear Marvel:

( SPOILERS! )

Apart from that, I enjoyed your film and how when the internet told me it was GAY AS BALLS and did not lie.

Also, I am informed that the guy playing Xavier ships it, ships it hard. And that one of the deleted scenes is him going "Oh, you want to see my powers - well, I can make you see the man to me in drag, is that a clue?" and I WANT IT PRECIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!"

But yeah, I - I want the fic of Raven and Charles growing up and being each others' keeper and HIJINKS. And GUYS ONE OF YOU POSTED A THING and the intro involved something along the lines of "In my head Erik just accepts that living with a telepath means that you can't keep a crush secret" and then there was fic and GUYS WHICH OF YOU WAS THIS? I CAN'T THINK OF WHO BECAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS halcyonjazz AND IT WASN'T SOB.

(Also I think I've figured out the problem with DW not cross-posting - I think if I don't login properly beforehand, it doesn't keep the crossposting setting of my account. Sigh.)

http://twitter.com/#!/search/realtime/%23bigglingalldaylong

If you wanna keep track of me and you don't have me on twitter, i'm updating with this tag for a while and this link should let you view things without the rest of... Well, me.

[ETA: hey guys, turns out crossosting was being fail again. Lots of posts incoming!]

Nay is not having awesome times, and I do not have real fic to cheer her up with because goddamn but I'm rusty. IN LEIU OF A REAL PRESENT, I AM GIVING HER DRAFTS OF FIC SO SHE CAN PICK THINGS FOR ME TO FINISH WHEN MY BRAIN WORKS AGAIN.

(No, it is not DTG. It will happen at some point I swear to God. I have a mix for DTG, I will be so pissed if I never get to post it and gloat about how I actually finished something longer than 5000 words.)

( FFVIII, Seifer and Zell, originally one of my drafts for the FFEX I defaulted on. )

Oh, hey guys - the crossposting was broken on my journal. Sorry for the spam!

I can't wait for when I graduate from uni, for when I move house, for when I can think about going back to Nottingham and not have to fix on SEEING LEX AGAIN to stop myself bursting into tears at the thought of going back.

I have so much stuff to do, no time to do it, and no desire to do any of it. When I'm in that house, I just sort of... Sit. I go on the internet. I can't tell you why, or what I'm doing there but I know I spend a lot of time staring vacantly at my laptop instead of doing anything else. Part of it's embarassment, I guess? Because I don't want the people around me to see what I enjoy and judge me for it. And part of it is just... NO ONE in that house does anything. It's like a ray of apathy shines up it and nerfs the willpower of all who enter. People play on the xbox. Everyone else sits around and watches or uses their laptops. NOTHING HAPPENS.

... Seriously, in that house I don't even have the goddamn energy to MAKE MYSELF A FUCKING SANDWICH most days. What the hell.

I think part of what's bothering me is... I used to have dreams! Things I wanted to do! Hobbies! And now... Now I sit on a sofa and do nothing and it irritates the fuck out of me. Going to try and just bull my way through the next few months. HEAD FIRST THROUGH PROBLEMS, YOU SAY. I CAN BUT TRY.

I take back all the doubts I had about you using history to your advantage. You have done well. At least some of you anyway.

KEEP IT UP.
Susan

GUYS AM TRYING TO BRAIN A CHARACTER FOR A STEAMPUNK SETTING. Original ideas were

1. Girl dressed as a boy in the army!
2. Dandy in hideous amount of debt.
3. AIRSHIP LADY YAY! :D
3.5 SKY PIRATE LADY
4. Srs bsns lady who is probably an assistant to SOMEBODY.

1, 2, and 3 have already been done (and better. And probably with less piracy and unknowing homosexuality.* I AM ORIGINAL KIDS.).

... Basically I am running through other options before I start statting up Miss Winifred Gentry because I'm not sure how interesting she would be to play (SRS BSNS LADY IN THE JUNGLE. THIS CAN ONLY GO WELL). But I need to read up on the rest of the setting to see if pirates are appropriate. Or if dashing thieves are appropriate. Or perhaps find some reason for a reverse Sweet Polly Oliver (... the sister and the brother swapped places so he didn't have to go to the army and she could? I don't know. I have coursework to do! I am not supposed to be thinking about steampunkery!

* My dandy would have been a dandy who needs to marry to keep his inheritance, but kinda went "I WAVE TWO FINGERS AT YOU SIR!" instead, because he hadn't found any women he felt he could love. Then he ended up in hideous amounts of debt and ran off with the expedition that's the plot to keep himself out of trouble. And reach of his creditors. ... He's probably kinda gay.

I went to see The Eagle today with a group of my friends (We were the Four Musketeers before I dropped Greek, and we are all awesomeing off to Italy and/or Greece in the summer shut up that is totally a verb.), and it was better than expected! Well, I say that, I had no expectations beyond "this is going to be so historically wrong sob," and if it was I didn't care, so!

As an aside, I saw the trailer for Thor while I was there, and it actually looks kinda good! Failing that, Thor looks kinda hot, the CGI looks good, and it has Natalie Portman, which may well make up for anything wrong with it! Also Showcase is stupidly expensive if you forget your student card, and Sucker Punch comes out soon! Or today! I recall this looking good, but I have no memory of it beyond possibly CGI and school girls in an insane asylum cutting down a zepplin with katanas. That may have been a line.

ANYWAY, THE EAGLE. ... I will admit, my first words at the end were "Well that was kinda gay!" Because - shockingly, considering it is two men on a quest alone that covers most of Scotland and England and involves lots of live saving and endangering - it is really kinda gay. I can't say how good an adaptation it is, because I have no memory of reading The Eagle of the Ninth even though I know I did (possibly there was a slave kid in a hut. Maybe. That's as much as I can give you.) The Eagle and 5000 men went missing in Scotland twenty years ago! The main character is on a quest to restore his family's honour by finding it! Everything goes as you'd expect, including the picking up of a slave who is awesome and the inevitable will-he-betray-him-or-won't-he.

I'll be honest with you; the walking montages could have been trimmed quite a lot and there would have been no problem. Also, SO MUCH OVERUSE OF SHAKY CAM IN FIGHT SCENES. It makes me cross, it's hard to follow the fight scenes like that. Plus. Um. I HAVE DONE TOO MANY MODULES ON ROMAN STUFF, I WILL BE SO SAD WHEN IT GETS TO THE SEX OR THE HISTORY BECAUSE I KNOW THAT PEOPLE WILL DO IT WRONG. S-sob.

(Failing that, I want the sex to be a big deal and full of UM WHAT I AM A ROMAN CITIZEN WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING - OH OKAY YOU TALKED ME INTO IT. Guys, I want vaguely historically accurate fanfic, what am I doing with my life.)

This makes it sound like I didn't like it, but it was good fun! I don't think a lot happens in it, or at least it's VERY SPACED OUT and the character development happens in silences, but it's entertaining and good fun, and full of talk of HONOUR and stuff. GUYS BRING ME FANFIC. AND POSSIBLY THE ORIGINAL BOOK.

HEY YOU GUYS!

By which I mean hi, uh, sorry I fell off the internet for six months! Or so. It may have been more.

... Hi!

Ancient Greek happened. I started to learn Ancient Greek last semester as an alternative to doing a dissertation, and then it ATE MY LIFE. I spent pretty much ALL MY TIME translating Greek (or working. Or reading for my course. Or writing essays.) and if I wasn't I had about brain to play tabletop RPGs (very badly) and crappy flash games. TOTALLY BRAIN FRIED GUYS.

And then exams happened and I passed Greek but not by much (2%!), so about two weeks after lectures started up again the department said "Susan! How do you feel about switching from Greek to two modules that aren't the dissertation you were doing Greek to avoid!" and I said "I feel like having a panic attack. Meeble." And now I'm not going Greek and suddenly have free time. A little. TO FILL WITH STUFF LIKE WORK. I have coursework instead of homework that I always have to get done by tomorrow! GLORIOUS DAY.

Okay, it's nine o'clock and ten o'clock lectures almost completely across the board. Shush. NO GREEK.

I've not been around people's LJs to check up on them, and I'm completely behind on all fandom that renay hasn't waved in my face. Is everyone okay? Has anything happened that I need to know about or never ever mention?

More stuff has happened than I can bear to list right now (I have PROJECTS and shows that make me flappyhands embarrassingly and I'm going to Greece and Italy in the summer and I completely failed at Mega Flare despite arts to motivate me.). I will try to list stuff when it's not hideously late in the day and I don't need to get up the next morning, and we'll go from there. LET ME KNOW HOW YOU ALL ARE OKAY PLEASE.